Dreams....

This is how I am feeling....

Pondering

Was I that bad a Sir??, if so, I should be shot and be drummed out of the BDSM world for good.

In Flight....

My final thoughts and words.....

It has been pointed out to me that I have " humiliated, hurt beyond words, broke her trust " morningstar well that never was my intention ever!!

I am sorry, so very sorry for all these actions.

This matter is now closed, forever.

It would seem, no turning back....

I thought it was going to be hard for morningstar to get over this breakup ( after I had posted THAT ad ) that she started the ball rolling by asking for time to think, then changing her status to the BDSM community without a word to me first.

But it seems she has gotten over things or least is moving on fast and you know something I am happy for her and her family ( they haven't talked to me since that night ) to know they are going to do well without me. I am sad about the family although but I do understand 100% their actions.

The only thing I don't understand is this she wrote:

" Last night a couple of friends whom i respect deeply (and am so proud to be able to call them "friend") asked me a tough question. They explained that the relationship (mine specifically) was like a V. When we were together it was the point of the V ...... very close......... and they felt i was slowly moving up the V but i hadn't moved all that far....... and they asked...... "did i want to go back down the V to the point again" (ok that was very wordy and a bit convoluted - but i hope you get the gist of the conversation) " what is " V ", is it her former lover, is it vanilla lifestyle, I just don't know ??

In any case, I am happy, like I said before, she is moving on " .... in cleaning out all the cobwebs before moving forward.. or even AS i move forward."

Have a good life morningstar....

My thanks....

To everyone that has left a comment or two on Mine and morningstar's blogs I wish to thank you so much.

Those that have supported morningstar in her time of sadness I wish to thank you deeply as I know she was/is going to have a hard time, although it looks like she has a good handle on things, even planning trips in the near future.

Thanks again everyone.

Warren

ps: if anyone knows someone locally that wishes BDSM equipment drop Me a line.

Poof 9 years gone.....

9 years gone up in smoke and even though I know what happened, I still don't know what the hell happened all I know is my life as I knew it has now changed and I would think knot for the better.

Last week, the sh*t hit the fan, I am not going into the details like morningstar said in her blog " washing the dirty laundry " isn't the correct thing to do. She handed back My collar.

Although I know I screwed up, yet now I am scared that things are going to downhill from now on and as much as I do control things, somethings just aren't controllable.

I wish all the best to a person that didn't deserve having someone like me in her lifetime, may her next Master serve her better ( also mark her the way she always wanted, but I could never do ) than I did as she had served me over the past almost 9 years.

Poof, I am gone....