Warren's Place

Hint, hint......

2012-01-03T15:23:00.005-05:00

That phrase was really more of a challenge from morningstar in her latest blog, and I normally don't back away from challenges and this is NO exception to that rule.

Here is her challenge: " W got some fun presents - one especially meant for both of us (and hopefully W will post pics of it on his blog - hint hint!!! ) " It was/is a shame that she upset the Cold Gods just before Christmas break or she would have found out on Sunday ( that is when the present arrived ) night just how good this present is...... she will have to wait until she is much better health wise.

And before I forget, I wish to thank the couple that gave me this 60th birthday present and I do hope now that I am a Senior Citizen ( the Bank and Governments tell me I am ) I can last long enough to show her how good it REALLY is.

The 1st picture shows the whole flogger, the 2nd picture is a close up of the tips and the final one shows a REAL good close up of the tips ☺

Let the games begin soonnnnnnnnnn........

Well, I have done it one more time....

2011-12-22T23:13:00.004-05:00

Once again I have caused morningstar pain ( and I don't mean the good kind ). I had to make a choice and I thought the one I made was the best one ( really there was no good choice ) for the occasion, well all I did was make her cry >>>> once again...

God I am tired of making these goofs, butt I seem to keep making them no matter what. I guess it should have been Me instead of George Bailey in that movie only this time Clarence doesn't get his wings..

Bah Humbug, I do hate Christmas, even more this year!!!

Is it time to revoke My licence???

2011-11-14T08:09:00.003-05:00

My Dom's license is under serious review for My stupid f@#$king actions and in My mind and other I am sure should be revoked! Soul searching is required this week..

Now, that you are going Huh, morningstar's blog tells the whole story much better that I can ( she is very good with words ). I would like to say though I owe a big THANK YOU to those people ( and they really are more than just people, Angels come to mind ) for coming to morningstar's assistance.

All I can say to morningstar is I am so very sorry for My mistake and the pain ( knot the good type either ) I caused her.

Follow up

2011-11-07T18:44:00.002-05:00

I got this from Florida Dom the other day in a comment section of an earlier blog:

*******
Florida Dom said...

We trust you. Tell us how it went.

FD

*******

well honestly, I don't kiss and tell or in this case hit and tell, butt morningstar did and writes SO much better than I do did so why don't you drop by and read it here.

All I will say is W/we both enjoyed the session ☺

I hope that answers your question FD??

Sir

2011-10-03T17:54:00.003-04:00

On the weekend W/we attended VASEcon “VT's first all-day kink conference” and it was a wonderful conference although W/we only attended 2 of the many seminars. The organizers even arranged for a fire drill in the rain. All the people that ran this event and those who gave the seminars must take a bow for a lovely job that I could see. I am looking forward to the next VASEcon to be held.

Now the main reason for attending was morningstar wanted to and for Me to learn how to use a cane better than I have been, the instructor, switchme, was great as far as I am concerned and I know morningstar also thinks the same as her blog tells about it since she was the instructor's test subject for the lecture ( I was proud of her volunteering while I was pushing her hand up ☺ ). I was very proud of her after the caning she got.

Once the lectures were over, the many vendors that the organizers brought in were allowed to sell their wares and there was my pleasure and downfall. The vendors that attended had wonderful things too wonderful ( as the photo shows ), as I spent more money than I had or will have in the next couple of months, but my thanks go out to Knotty Designs for their lovely gray/orange rope flogger, TotemX Creations for the rabbit mitten complete with pen nib talons, RopeExtremes for the brilliant and vibrant bronze and silver rope and Spankysleather for the black leather 3-in-1 slapper ( he even threw in very nice simple brown leather slapper ).

Now, I did do a simple test of these new toys on morningstar's ass the next morning butt since it was still sore and marked from switchme's lecture I haven't really tested them out properly that their creators meant them to do, butt it will happen..... oh trust Me on the score.

It isn't a secret anymore...

2011-09-05T21:43:00.003-04:00

I have been told by an old friend that I am scared.. well I think he might be right, although I denied it when it was said, and most of today that word hasn't left me..

The list is long right now and is getter longer ever day..

Guess what, I am scared to write this blog, so I am going to end it right now...

Scared...

2011-07-19T22:39:00.004-04:00

I am scared of...

Saying the wrong thing...
Doing the wrong thing...
Living...
Failing even more...
Screwing up...
Going broke...
Homeless...
Not being able to fix things...
My health...
Love...
Talking...
Understanding things...
Answering questions I can't answer myself...

This is only what comes to this foolish old man's mind, or what my mind will allow me to voice...

Fed up

2011-04-18T22:47:00.003-04:00

Well I need to say this and it isn't any need to respond to what I say.....

I am fed up of being politically correct.

I am fed up of having to fight for things that shouldn't have to be fought for.

I am fed up of always having to be nice.

I am fed up with pleasing everyone.

I am fed up with seniors trying to do something they will never get the hang off. ie: computers

I am fed up knot being able to do things that I should be able to.

I am fed up with life.

I am fed up with Governments that waste tax payers money, but expect me to pay $27,000.00 in taxes for something I haven't sold but they say I have even though they know I haven't.

I am fed up with knot being able to get a hard on because I am scared to try my Viagra again, even though I not longer care if I die or not.

I am fed up with knot being able to the Dom that I should be.

I am fed up with making people cry.

I am fed up with knot being able to clear out my house of all the junk or sell what I can.

I am fed up with worrying about my old age without a pension, because I screwed up when I was younger.

I am fed up knot being able to talk to a Professional about these things.

So now that you have heard me bitch out loud just go on with your life's like I never said anything or had been here.

A reply to morningstar's blog....

2011-03-23T19:31:00.002-04:00

This morning morningstar posted a blog about waiting for my feedback to her question about my feelings regarding us, well I sent her an email back about it but I felt that I should post my reply so her readers could continue with her " Adventurous Journey " so here it is:

My Little me....

I do hope that I can answer this email without screwing up the words, since you know I can do that very easily....

I don't know what questions you think I have in my mind. The only thing in my mind is how can I figure out what I am looking for/what out in our relationship from your " new " change of being if you are still mapping it out in your mind. I do know until you have figured out things clearly in your mind I can't nor able to figure out if our relationship will work out to your thinking.

I do however know that I don't want you ever to stop being a friend, no, a good friend! The thought you not being my friend upsets me alot and did when we parted before.

I am sure this isn't the answer you were looking for but at this time and place it is the only one...

your Big Me....

ps: I think I am going to cut and paste this to My blog...

morningstar's medical update continued.....

2011-02-23T21:12:00.003-05:00

Back to the drawing board.... things didn't work out :-((

morningstar's medical update continued.....

2011-02-22T20:28:00.003-05:00

Well another day down and no further ahead... morningstar had a test ( I won't mention what one ) this morning that didn't work so tomorrow the Medical folk are going to try it again but using something stronger, if that fails well, I am not sure what will be left... Just to let you all know I am being REAL good about some of the jokes I could use right now...

On the good side her spirits are much better ( even her hunky looking surgeon says so ) since she has been allowed to go out and have a cig or two. she has her computer now but no internet connection so at least she can play her games. she is having troubles with the hospital food though, although the dietitians are visiting her daily to find something she likes and her body will accept...

That is all for now...

morningstar's medical update continued.....

2011-02-19T22:17:00.003-05:00

Well, I have just arrived back from visiting morningstar and the visited started off in tears since in the past couple of days the Medical folks have been telling her " she has something, she doesn't have something ".... All this did for her was have her stomach in knots and knot the good kind!

During our visit one of her Medical folk ( a senior Doctor ) dropped in and without dawning a yellow protective gown he headed for the bottom of her bed and started off by saying she didn't have C-Dificle , but did have a thing I can't say much less spell. The bottom line was she is going to be ok ( unless another Medical folk says something else ) even though he felt she should stay in the hospital for maybe another 10 days to get more drugs and a follow up CT scan.

So, what do you think morningstar did when he left the room after saying she could go anywhere in the hospital she wanted, yes you guessed it, out for a smoke and here is the picture I took while she was enjoying the first cigarette in four days at -10c....

All in all this was a good visit, don't you think? More to come next week ( the Medical folk are off on weekends...

morningstar's medical update

2011-02-17T17:45:00.002-05:00

Hi everyone,

morningstar's is still in the hospital getting more tests and and drugs to help her get her strength back and fight off the nasty things that are making her sick.

The surgeon talked to her this morning and they have found something that could be several things but need to do more tests before they narrow down what it really is. she is a bit down ( something I do understand ) but I have told her to hang in there until ALL the tests are in before she starts worrying.

I didn't stay long because between the tests and the doctor's news morningstar wanted to be alone ( she is never really alone ) to think things out and rest up from those tests nasty side effects...

That is all I know for the moment...

" It's Time " update......Update....

2011-01-19T00:54:00.002-05:00

Hi all,

It is now almost 1am and I am just getting to this as I left the hospital at 11:00 and needed to do a few things first...

morningstar has now had her operation and it looks like a 100% successful even with her low blood pressure right after her surgery. She must be on the mend as she was refusing the nurses wishes of using a bedpan versus the walk-in toilet....

I will know tomorrow morning if I will be bringing her home tomorrow to start her recovery..

That is it right now.... I am sure tomorrow afternoon or evening you will be hearing from morningstar once again....

" It's Time " update......

2011-01-17T22:06:00.003-05:00

This morning, morningstar posted on her blog about her fight with her gall bladder, well the short of it right now is the following:

After spending 12 hours in ER before she was officially admitted to her hospital room. W/we met with her surgeon and he wants to run a couple of tests tomorrow morning to double check something then he will decide when the operation will take place, but I do believe it will no longer be done on Feb 14th but rather my guess is Wednesday morning or late Tuesday.

Sorry it isn't much news but at least morningstar is in the hospital now and resting ( she was when I left and hope she still is )....

I will let you know more when I/W/we know more.

Mojo.....

2011-01-01T19:30:00.004-05:00

I had a strange feeling ( something rare ) this weekend while we attended the SNOW BALL! New Years Eve Gala at Breathless, when I started up on morningstar's sparkly bod I just couldn't get my act together.

It didn't matter what toy I placed in My hand it just didn't feel right. For some reason the toys that I first started up with just didn't feel right, something I have never felt before and really don't understand why I should have felt that way. Oh, I was as happy as any " Dom/Master/Sir " could be with the thought that a pain slut bottom was going to allow/want/need My limited ability to send her to a place that would make her very happy and content...

Fortunately for both of us, this feeling passed fairly quickly and I do hope that I was able to make sure that morningstar had a good start to 2011.

I am just hoping that I am knot losing my mojo?? Any other Dom/Master/Sir ever had this feeling too?

ps: Happy New Year to all....

Presents Galore continued...

2010-12-05T20:15:00.010-05:00

morningstar really said it all about this past weekend together but I thought you should see some of the results of it... I was a blast walking through the mall holding her hand, my arm around her shoulder :-))

Oh, if you can't see it the darn Xmas " dolls " are still knot sticking to the windows even though I washed the window and stickers :-(

Checking In....

2010-10-28T19:56:00.002-04:00

Hi follow B/bloggers,

I just thought I would check in here for a couple of words, since words unusually get Me into trouble.

First off, my Mother passed away, so I have been busy trying to screw the government before they screw Me, so far not doing too well on that one :-(( I really wonder who should be in jail the crooks or the Revenue Department??

Next off, is morningstar and I are back as friends and are working step by step to move forward with a new BDSM relationship. I just hope that this old dog can learn new tricks.

Thanks to everyone that hung in with Me over the past months, I really appreciate it.

A Sad Anniversary

2010-07-29T00:01:00.003-04:00

Today would have been O/our 10th Anniversary !!

Sadly, I blew it and forgot to over the last few years of O/our togetherness to connect with morningstar with more than just actions of love, being there when you were hurting, but WITH LOVE!!

I know morningstar isn't or will except these words but I am sorry,

sorry that I didn't show you enough the love that was always in My heart
didn't say enough that I loved you
didn't hold you close enough to Me

Now, I have nothing but loving fond memories of a love that has come and gone, gone, gone.....

Happy Anniversary to a former friend and partner, morningstar, you will be missed :-(

ps: There is no place for comments because I am tired of people telling Me to move on, well I have but I am allowed to have My memories of a lady that I thought would be there for the rest of My life.

I don't get something.....

2010-07-16T16:00:00.005-04:00

I know I am stupid so no one has to tell me this once again.....

Today I commented ( she has removed my comments ) to morningstar on her blog with all honesty and got the following email back " Yes you did .. and you know you did....... but it won’t happen again.. trust me " I am sadden she thinks I have only bad towards her. Now maybe it was because of blog comments we exchanged yesterday regarding her " Leather Family " she is now in.

Honestly I was confused with some of her replies, since what I had read was no one controlled anyone else in a " Leather Family " yet she is telling me she wouldn't place it on FetLife that she is her two Sir's family until her two Sirs place it on theirs, now to me and my stupid thinking she should be proud she is in that family and doesn't need any ones permission to tell people, I just don't get it....

So, I am sadden that morningstar doesn't/won't believe when I say I wasn't trying to embarrass or get under her skin, but I WASN'T but rather confused with her conflicting statements. So yet again we have crossed swords even though that was NEVER my intentions at anytime.

Sadly on my part, I am sure, I will totally back off on making ANYMORE comments/thoughts/good wishes/sadness/observations or anything else that morningstar says or writes. I will no longer attend any BDSM event/party or anything else where she is attending so I can't say/do anything that will embarrass/interfere/humiliate or anything else her. I do hope I will run into my friends at other places.

This way she doesn't have to think I did it on purpose when actually I was confused or caring about something.

You must remember this.....

2010-07-11T20:24:00.001-04:00

This was a great movie, it was a shame that Rick lost....

Love is blind....

2010-07-04T21:35:00.003-04:00

I want to say how sorry I am to S***la for being the lousy boyfriend that I was to her. I took her for granted and thought she would always be there.

I forgot to do the things a boyfriend is should, suppose to & want to do.

" They " are truly correct when they say love is blind, because I sure was!!

So, to S***la I say for all to hear but especially to you I am VERY SORRY for all the pain I have caused you not only since the break-up but long, long before when I should have known better!! I may have not shown it to you but I loved you always.

May your next boyfriend treat you so much better and hold & kiss you daily, hourly and every other chance he gets.

ps: If there was only a real time machine, so I could correct things.

Dear life....

2010-07-03T15:31:00.002-04:00

Wondering??

2010-06-28T20:16:00.002-04:00

I wonder why people/bloggers leave comments on other blogs and then never seem to go back to check if the person they have left their comments to has answered their comments??

Some will, some won't....

2010-06-27T22:03:00.003-04:00

My memories will only die when I do, unlike others that threw them out in the trash bin....

An admission of being a phony....

2010-06-23T15:13:00.003-04:00

NOW before everyone goes nuts, I am NOT blaming morningstar in any way shape or form GOT IT !!!!

I have to be honest with the BDSM world and myself, I have been a phony Sir/Master for the past 10 years after reading morningstar's past few blogs...

When reading the blogs I have noticed that I was unable to obtain the level of pain, marks and other things that her S&S Masters are achieving with her and that is wonderful for her!

But it makes me think that I was a phony big time by calling/acting like a Sir/Master that I couldn't even do the most simplest of BDSM functions, like ice playing with her, like marking her, like making her take the breast beatings that she is now accepting from them never from me and many more things I am sure of.

So to the BDSM world that I knew and loved and to morningstar, I am so very sorry that I called myself a Sir/Master or even thought I could be a Sir/Master.

I don't want or look for any forgiveness, because I don't deserve any for my past actions of being a BDSM phony.

The only honorable thing to do is to leave once all the paperwork is done and hopefully that will be finished by the end of next month since I only meet with the Notary ( Lawyer ) on the 15th.

Something I have learnt about myself....

2010-06-21T09:12:00.001-04:00

Something I will be fixing real soon, then everyone will be happy...

Taking things for granted.....

2010-06-11T18:29:00.004-04:00

Everyone is needed, wanted, loved......

Sometimes we forget or take it for granted:

To say to them,
To hold them,
To love them,
To spoil them,
to the people we should & must care for,

because just thinking our actions alone are enough to make/keep them happy

WELL IT ISN'T JUST
EVER ENOUGH TO THINK IT!!!!!

Don't EVER FORGOT IT
or
you WILL loss it !!!!!

I know, I did :-(( and I have paid the price dearly for forgetting that.....

It says it all.....

2010-06-06T19:29:00.001-04:00

It saves your mind, that is if you had one.... something I don't think I ever had...

Reply to morningstar

2010-06-04T08:14:00.003-04:00

Dear morningstar:

First off, I see you have used my real name which I have no problem with ( but I can see someone's hand in that one ), but I still have honor and will not use your real name in this response.

Now, let me say this up front about your family, I can only assume you are referring to the letters I sent out this past week to each of them saying how sorry and to apologize to each of them for putting them through the pain that I put them through in the past. I wasn't looking for them to reply, nor forgive me, but I needed to say how honestly sorry I was and had no intentions to ever contact them again. You can them it will not happen ever again, I just thought I owed it to them, guess I was wrong again.

As for you getting on with your " new " found BDSM lifestyle honestly I have accepted this and honestly it was nice the last time I saw you smiling, laughing. I felt it was awkward for us to be in the same room, so I decided then and there to not show up at anything you were attending to make it easier on you. Also, when one of your " play partners " wrote me and said I was " interferring in my playtime " that only confirmed my decision to stop attending events even those that I had been personally been invited to so I wouldn't be interfering with your " new " life and to let your " play partners " be able to attend to your needs since they seemed to be having troubles in that area.

As for comments, basically I did the same thing as attending places with some exceptions when you posted or commented something that was vanilla/BDSM, like " ...silly men... " and then I would respond back " what about silly women? ", comments that would be made by anyone but you decided to ban me and that was ok, since anyone can ban anyone for what ever reason they choose no matter how petty that decision is.

There are only two things that still bother me about this whole fucking breakup, but I don't think I will ever get the honest answers from you, so I move on. I am sorry thought that I ruined your life for the past 10 years.....

In conclusion, I feel that in your mind/feelings ( what ever word(s) you wish to use ) I am as good as dead, maybe that is what should have happened. You have asked me to " Please Warren - let it go for once and all " so unless you, your family or " play partners " respond/blog or email directly I WILL NOT BE CONTACTING YOU, I AM DEAD AS FAR AS I AM CONCERNED, hell who knows it just might happen anyways!!!!!

*** Note for those readers ( and you know you are ) of this blog that felt I should stop blogging about this breakup in public I just wanted to let you know I didn't start this one, but I needed to reply to morningstar and her small comment space won't have worked. ***

*** NOTE morningstar has since taken down her " Open Letter " blog that was the result of this reply blog ***

Moving on......

2010-05-28T16:31:00.001-04:00

Well everyone is telling me to move on and I am going to but I just need to say why I have been hanging on, for lack of a good phase, and that is for statements made/said by " m " like this one:

" I am learning to be myself after many years of being who someone else wanted me to be..... "

I would like to know how I was trying to make someone into something else when she was the one that wanted the D/s lifestyle for the past ten years? So with statements like that make me sound like I am the big bad wolf I needed to be around....

But, I am going to move on in any case since it seems to me that I am never going to be able to protect my good name with statements like that one and others made/said by her.

Oh, and " m ", if you want the toys that you so freely gave when you told me to get ALL the BDSM things that you packed up out of the condo and then you asked back for, I will be more than willing to give them back to you when you give me back the TV that I left that you didn't want to trade for the almost same TV model with me and is that being petty YOUR DAM RIGHT, " sucks to be you " as someone we both know would say !

So I now move on, OH and yes, SirSteve01 you can now play with her without me " interferring in my playtime " as you put it yesterday !!!

Is everyone happy now???

Confused, of course she can change her mind, BUT??

2010-05-25T22:36:00.003-04:00

Now, before anyone jumps on my case, I wish to state this up front: I wish all the best to " m "and that this isn't meant to hurt her in anyway, GOT IT !!!

I hear through the grapevine that " m " is doing things now that we did a long ago in our relationship, but she didn't want them even going as far as saying they were to be placed on her Hard Limit list, yet now she is doing them and is happy about doing them.....

I JUST DON'T GET IT, was it me as a Lover, as Sir, as a person>>> what before was a Hard Limit is now something she loves?????

I just don't get it and maybe I not suppose to, ever in my lifetime :-((

Here she goes again....

2010-05-22T23:19:00.006-04:00

Well once again morningstar, is having a temper tantrum because I had the guts to comment on a comment she had left on FetLife about silly men. I said what about women?? and you guessed it SHE DROPPED ME AS A FRIEND ONCE AGAIN !! she also blocked me from Fetlife, Blogger and Facebook, so I can't read anything she writes, but I won't go to that low level and I will allow her to read anything I write..

So be it, if she wants to act like a 2 year old in her new " Adventurous Journey " life so be it like I said before I hope she has a WONDERFUL life acting like a 2 year old.

Oh, I am sorry to all those 2 years old that act better than that......

*** If you need to comment on this post, then email directly ***

I don't care, I am saying it any ways !!!

2010-05-18T15:36:00.005-04:00

I know I shouldn't say anything, but I am going to any ways and if no one wants to believe me well, I don't give a Fuck !!!

I have sat back and said nothing for the past little while ( oh I did last week, but it was never posted ) regarding morningstar's ( for those who don't know, my former collared person ) new search for a better BDSM lifestyle and life in general, well today she blogged that she has found it.

Here is the part that you might not believe, but I don't care what you think, I AM SO VERY, VERY HAPPY FOR HER and it doesn't matter what happened in the past 10 years or who was right or wrong or anything else for that matter, she has FOUND her way and that is all that counts!!

WAY TO GO morningstar, have a WONDERFUL LIFE......

ps: see that " virus from hell " did some good for ya!

The Ottawa Workshop.....

2010-05-09T10:17:00.003-04:00

Yesterday, I drove up to Ottawa ( My Nation's Capital, of the Great White North ) to Breathless, a BDSM center and much more, to attend a workshop on " D/s and welcome to the BDSM life " presented by Lord_Omy and his slave. He started off His presentation with a little story that I have placed below, it isn't too long, but I rather think you will enjoy as I can think of a couple of people for sure. As I sat there listening to Him read it, it started Me thinking about the past 10 years with morningstar and what O/our relationship had meant and what it had become.

He then went on to talk about what He called the " 4 Keys of BDSM", (1) Open and honest communications, (2) Trust (3) Respect (4) Consent, something I think I tried to follow, with a couple mistakes along the way.

It was a very good workshop and maybe someday you too will be lucky enough to hear Lord_Omy speak on this topic.

Now, here is that story I promised you...

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The Teacup - thoughts on submission

A couple vacationing in Europe went strolling down a little street and saw a quaint little shop with a beautiful teacup in the window. The lady collected teacups and she wanted this one for her collection, so she went inside to pick up the teacup and as the story goes the teacup spoke and said :
“ I want you to know that I have not always looked like this. It took the process of pain to bring me to this point. You see, there was a time when I was just clay and the Master came and he pounded me and he squeezed me and he kneaded me and I screamed: “ Stop that!”

But he just smiled and said, “ Not yet.”

Then he took me and put me on the shelf and I went round and round and round and round and while I was spining and getting dizzier and dizzier I screamed again and I said “ Please get me off this thing, please get me off!” And the Master was looking at me and he was smiling , as he said, “ Not yet.”

Then he took me and walked toward the oven and shut the door and turned up the heat and I could see him through the window of the oven and it was getting hotter and hotter and hotter and I thought, “ He’s going to burn me to death.”

And I started pounding on the inside and I said, “ Master, let me out, let me out!” I could see that he was smiling , as he said, “ Not yet.”

Then he opened the door and I was fresh and free and he took me out of the oven and he put me on the table and then he got some paint and a paintbrush. He stated dabbling on me and making swirls all over me and I started to gag and I said: “Master, stip it please, your making me gag.” He just smiled as he said, “Not yet.”

Then very gently he picked me up again and he stated walking towards the overn and I said, “ Master, no! Not again pleeeease!” He opened the over door and he slopped me inside and he shut the door and this time he turned the heat up twice as hot as before and I thought, “ He’s going to kill me!”

I looked throught the window of the oven and I started to pound saying, “ Master, Master, please let me out! Please let me out.” I could seee that he was smiling but I also noticed a tear trickle down his cheek as I watched him moutht he words, “ Not yet.”

Just as I thought I was about to die, the door opened and he reached in ever so gently and took me out, fresh and free, and he went and placed me on a high shelf and he said: “ There, I have created what I intended. Would you like to see yourself?”

I said, “ yes. “
He handed me a mirror and I looked and I looked again and I said, “ that’s not me. I’m just a lump of clay.”

He said, “ Yes, that is you, but it took the process of pain to brinf you to this place. Had I not worked you when you were clay, then you would have dried up. If I had not subjected you to the stress of the wheel you would have crumbled. If I had not out you into the heat of the oven you would have cracked. If I had not painted you there would be no color in your life. But, it was the second oven that gave you the strength to endure. Now you are everything I intedned you to be from the beginning.”

And I, the teacup, heard myself saying something I never thought I would hear myself saying, “ Master, forgive me! I did not trust you. I thought you were going to harm me. I did not know you had a glorious future and a hope for me. I was too shortsighted, but I want to thank you. I want to thank you for the suffering. I want to thank you for the process of pain. Here I am! I give you myself. Fill me, pour from me, use me as you see fit. I really want to be a vessel that brings you glory within my life.”

- - Author Unknown

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I hope you enjoyed the story as much as I did and got it's message.

Also, I just wanted to say My thanks to Miss Jenn for taking the time out of her always busy personal and business life to sit down and talk to Me. She is a WONDERFUL person, that I will always call My friend and if she ever calls on Me for a favor or assistance, I will be there in a shot.

Thanks Jenn, You taught Me to see things in a different light....

Something good has come out of this mess.....

2010-05-04T21:58:00.004-04:00

I am so glad I helped a friend in their NEW life.

ADDENDUM:

I just got an email from the above friend and here is part of that email " ... I personally think you should expound on how you helped me get to where I am today. I would like that.. like to know how you see this transition.........

Go on .. I dare you !!!

Ok, I will take up this dare since it seems simply logical....

If I hadn't placed the ad requesting a bondage session for myself the whole mess wouldn't have started and thus my friend on her way to her new wonderful adventure and new thinking of her BDSM ways. Otherwise she would have come to me to talked about not enjoying the BDSM lifestyle ( or the Vanilla one too ) we were living before I place the ad.

I think this answers the dare she has placed in front of me...

In Memoriam

2010-04-30T17:11:00.003-04:00

Morningstar & Warren

July 29, 2002 to April 30, 2010

" Morningstar was the best submissive I ever served then or ever again "

New Title.....

2010-04-28T11:03:00.001-04:00

How can I still call it " Sir's " place when I no longer have a submissive, in MY eyes that would be false advertising..

So the truth is it is " Warren's " place...

There is nothing worse....

2010-04-27T11:10:00.003-04:00

The words are in my mind, but when they are written down they don't convey the feelings that are in this old mind of mine....

Don't ya just hate that???

Darn, I could have had a .......

2010-04-19T20:10:00.001-04:00

I could have had a submissive....
I could have had a loving lady....
I could have had a lifetime companion...
I could have had a friend....
I could have had sleepful nights...
I could have had fun times....
I could have had a step family...
I could have had grandsons...
I could have had a life...

but instead

I won't now because I did something very foolish, stupid ( use what ever words works here ) and one of the worst parts is I will never 100% understand why....

Before for that fateful day of March 8 2010 I had been talking to good friend about the fact something was going wrong with the relationship, but I couldn't for the life of me figure it out. Unfortunately for me my time ran out before I could figure it out or go to the next step and do something that every Master/submissive should always do, communicate, before the sh*t it the fan and it was over forever since I screwed that up too.

All I can say is I am so very, very sorry I hurt people and one person in particular that I loved so very much about. I wish I could take back all the hate I caused!

Well all this mess is my fault but I could have had, only if....

Here's a question to think about....

2010-04-17T16:21:00.003-04:00

Why is it that governments and medical professionals won't let you leave this world when you have: no money, no sex, no partner, no career, no family, health problems, no life?

I can see them passing laws for non-professionals not to assist the person wishing to leave this world, since there could be abuse on that level, but other than that why do they force you to stick around to suffer?

I can see it if you are clinical depressed since you don't have full control of your mind.

I can see it if you are going to physically hurt someone, like driving over a bridge and landing on passing boat.

So why can't the governments just stay out of it except for the above mentioned points?

Well I have been called,,,,

2010-04-15T09:08:00.003-04:00

The other day I was told in a couple of emails I was an " Ass " as well as " You must not be well-because if you were well and right in the head " plus " You are clueless ", well I might go along with being an Ass, but being not well or clueless??

A friend of O/ours before the breakup and hopefully afterwards once pulled me aside and said that I shouldn't get involved with any of morningstar's vanilla family and I told him nahhh I could handle it without any problems, well guess what?? HE WAS RIGHT ! Oh they claimed they understood what O/our lifestyle was all about, but deep down I don't ever think they did and that is fine since I don't think everyone in this cruel world has to understand or accept the BDSM lifestyle. Deep down the more I became stronger to their Mom ( at her wishes ) the more they didn't like it ( now I am sure I carried those wishes out at the wrong times ), but never had the guts to say anything directly to me at least ( claimed they wrote lots of emails but never sent them so to my mind of thinking same damn thing as not saying anything! ) and what I understand nothing to their Mom either. I hate it when someone doesn't like something and won't say anything about it, but will keep it inside!!

Well, at this stage of the game, they are now out of my life and I have dealt with that, but here is some advise to any future Doms and submissives that wish to learn from others mistakes:

DON'T MIX VANILLA AND BDSM FAMILIES !!

I feel like an Ogre

2010-04-12T23:45:00.002-04:00

I am feeling like an Ogre with all of morningstar's friends saying it is a shame she has be alone while she is so sick.

It is my fault she is so sick and so alone, well in my mind that is true, if I hadn't been such a Fuc*ng Ogre by leaving her and everything else I did to her she would be fine and not sick or alone.

No title

2010-04-07T22:33:00.003-04:00

Enough is enough......

2010-04-05T11:58:00.003-04:00

I have decided based in morningstar's latest blog that I now clear out permanently since I have done nothing but hurt her, something I knew would happen to a point, as all breakups do, but I have seemed to have stepped over the lines of hurt something she never deserved for one moment more than the normal situation should have been.

To all her friends, and she has tons of them, take care of her make sure she stays well and happy!!

For the last time littleone, I am so sorry for ALL the pain, humiliation and everything else I have done to you, I never deserved such a lovely fairy like you!!

The Death of an old friend....

2010-04-02T17:40:00.002-04:00

It would seem that My old friend Don has to be killed off since it would seem He is no longer needed....

Farewell Old Friend.....

Decision.....

2010-04-01T23:46:00.003-04:00

I am sitting here and have been since I read about the latest problem morningstar wrote about in her blog today and deciding what I should do.... Read it first before you go on reading this blog..

Now that you have read hers here is what is going through My mind:

1) Do I email her and say I am sad to hear what has happened?
2) Do I just walk away and say and do nothing?
3) Do I blow my gasket and yell at her employers?

All of these options are good ones and at the same time they are the worst ones too...

This reminds Me of a song " I am Reviewing the Situation " from the Musical " Oliver " by Lionel Bart.

I think I will review the situation again...

Dreams....

2010-03-31T07:47:00.000-04:00

This is how I am feeling....

2010-03-30T23:29:00.001-04:00

Pondering

2010-03-29T07:49:00.002-04:00

Was I that bad a Sir??, if so, I should be shot and be drummed out of the BDSM world for good.

In Flight....

2010-03-24T14:15:00.000-04:00

My final thoughts and words.....

2010-03-22T18:11:00.003-04:00

It has been pointed out to me that I have " humiliated, hurt beyond words, broke her trust " morningstar well that never was my intention ever!!

I am sorry, so very sorry for all these actions.

This matter is now closed, forever.

It would seem, no turning back....

2010-03-21T13:46:00.004-04:00

I thought it was going to be hard for morningstar to get over this breakup ( after I had posted THAT ad ) that she started the ball rolling by asking for time to think, then changing her status to the BDSM community without a word to me first.

But it seems she has gotten over things or least is moving on fast and you know something I am happy for her and her family ( they haven't talked to me since that night ) to know they are going to do well without me. I am sad about the family although but I do understand 100% their actions.

The only thing I don't understand is this she wrote:

" Last night a couple of friends whom i respect deeply (and am so proud to be able to call them "friend") asked me a tough question. They explained that the relationship (mine specifically) was like a V. When we were together it was the point of the V ...... very close......... and they felt i was slowly moving up the V but i hadn't moved all that far....... and they asked...... "did i want to go back down the V to the point again" (ok that was very wordy and a bit convoluted - but i hope you get the gist of the conversation) " what is " V ", is it her former lover, is it vanilla lifestyle, I just don't know ??

In any case, I am happy, like I said before, she is moving on " .... in cleaning out all the cobwebs before moving forward.. or even AS i move forward."

Have a good life morningstar....

My thanks....

2010-03-20T16:35:00.002-04:00

To everyone that has left a comment or two on Mine and morningstar's blogs I wish to thank you so much.

Those that have supported morningstar in her time of sadness I wish to thank you deeply as I know she was/is going to have a hard time, although it looks like she has a good handle on things, even planning trips in the near future.

Thanks again everyone.

Warren

ps: if anyone knows someone locally that wishes BDSM equipment drop Me a line.

Poof 9 years gone.....

2010-03-17T17:18:00.000-04:00

9 years gone up in smoke and even though I know what happened, I still don't know what the hell happened all I know is my life as I knew it has now changed and I would think knot for the better.

Last week, the sh*t hit the fan, I am not going into the details like morningstar said in her blog " washing the dirty laundry " isn't the correct thing to do. She handed back My collar.

Although I know I screwed up, yet now I am scared that things are going to downhill from now on and as much as I do control things, somethings just aren't controllable.

I wish all the best to a person that didn't deserve having someone like me in her lifetime, may her next Master serve her better ( also mark her the way she always wanted, but I could never do ) than I did as she had served me over the past almost 9 years.

Poof, I am gone....

There are trains and then there are trains...

2010-02-27T11:40:00.006-05:00

If you didn't already know I am into model trains as well as BDSM, what you might not know is My littleone also enjoys them.

A couple of birthdays ago littleone gave Me a HO starter set, well that lead to U/us installing it over at her condo since at the time I didn't have space over at My location. W/we placed it in the small BDSM basement room since it was not really being used :-( So a 4x8 plywood sheet was purchased and the layout started beside her treadmill, a tight but usable area.

Over the past couple of years the two pieces of equipment were really getting to be a pain and since the Grandchildren are now using the basement it was time to rethink the whole train thing. I now have the space for the layout and just needed to figure out how to get the layout out of the Condo without any damage.

Now, I am of the "old school " of train scales that being HO, littleone on the other hand enjoys the reverse, N scale. A couple weeks ago, W/we sat down and talked about the trains and she really said that I hadn't trained her how to use the DCC ( Digital Command Control ) train system and she was correct as I thought she had lost interest in the trains, but rather the fact that I hadn't finished doing the track work and the other things got in the way so the training fell between the rails. In short, she said she wanted to start a new N scale and I thought this is great news as it would solve the problem of getting the old layout out of the Condo. When I purchased the plywood for the layout I was forced to cut the 4x8 sheet into two pieces then hinge them back into place, now I could just dismantle the layout and unhinge the plywood thus it would be a perfect size for littleone's new N scale.

Now, what has that could to do with the title of this blog? well there are trains and then there are trains, and littleone found out right after O/our talk and plans of the " other " trains as you can see by the picture below.

One really has to LOVE trains in any form :-))

Doms are from Mars???

2010-02-22T09:40:00.002-05:00

I have been thinking that Dr. Gray needs to write an updated version of this wonderful book, but for Doms and submissives...

Wondering....continued

2010-02-14T08:24:00.005-05:00

Well, Florida Dom mentioned in My comment section of Wondering post "How red do you want her ass after you finish with hitting it?" here is some proof...

Oh, the paddle will be fixed....

Warren,
Owner of morningstar

Wondering....

2010-02-13T16:51:00.002-05:00

I am wondering if I used the correct wording for her ( Mine ) ass??

What do you think?? I am thinking now it should have read " His Ass to hit here "...

Warren,
Owner of morningstar

Crossroads.....

2010-02-08T11:53:00.000-05:00

It's that time of year again....

2009-12-25T12:04:00.002-05:00

Well, before the computer dies due to lack of power ( I forgot the power at home ) I thought you might enjoy seeing littleone's present to Me....

I hope that all you had a lovely Christmas day, as I did with My loved ones.....

Sir,
Owner of morningstar

Farmville, Netbook vs BDSM

2009-10-25T10:34:00.006-04:00

OMG, My littlone has become a computer/Farmville geek overnight....

I say this because over the weekend she purchased a lovely little HP Netbook computer and now she is setting it up, no time for BDSM....

her Farmville needs tending, no time BDSM....

Guess what, NOW IT IS TIME FOR BDSM !!!!!!!

Hope her computer won't crash, her farm won't die....

I HATE holidays, words

2009-10-12T17:30:00.000-04:00

Well another holiday has come and gone. Words have once again got Me in trouble. I also know these words are going to get Me into trouble too, but this time I have to speak My mind ( if I ever had one ).

I used two word today after this holiday weekend and now both of U/us are unhappy, oh those words were " have to ". Now maybe I should have used another word but I was listing things so I used those words for everything.

Holidays around here are in My opinion are a pain in the ass, oh not for the fun it brings but for the aftermaths. Once the guests/family have left then it is panic mode to get things back into normal status instead of sitting back ( for a few minutes at least ) and enjoying the times goods that have just happened.

Holidays upset the routine of this house and although I can stand it, My littleone has to have everything back in its place instead of spreading things out or letting things good for a couple of days. So what if all the laundry isn't done in a day, or the house is " dirty " for a day or two. Ok, ok I know I am a Male Dom, but which is better in My mind getting in some BDSM fun in or doing the " chores " right that moment?? Hell no, it is get the chores done, and I am now sick of it, GOS ( Good Old Sir ) in the old times would have say go get the chores done, but I am suppose to be changing to a Stricter Dom, well it isn't working either. I get attitude like " have to " ?? well all that does is turn Me off of what I want to do, then who wins NO ONE.

Is there a way to cancel all holidays? unfortunately no, so I really don't know what to do, right now all I know is W/we are both unhappy, she for not getting to fly and Me for not taking her up there :-((

This has to stop because I am F@#$%king tired of feeling the way I am feeling today!!

Sir's Sunday report

2009-08-23T21:16:00.006-04:00

Well normally My littleone writes a Monday report blog on the weekend's events or lack of them, well I thought I would get one out to Y/you before she has a good at it, also I have the pictures to show Y/you and she doesn't.

In a nut shell, the weekend really started off on Thursday instead of Friday as My littleone took O/our oldest Grandson and Myself to see " Walking with the Dinosaurs " and what a show it was. I have been trying to find the correct word to describe it and I still haven't but I would strongly suggest that if you have the change to and you are enjoy seeing " live " shows then go by all means it is worth it in My opinion.

Now moving on to Friday, I decided that W/we should attend the " FetLife " munch that was being held later that evening. It was good to see old friends that W/we hadn't seen or heard from even though the turn out wasn't as many as the hostess had planned on ( just ticks Me off that people say they are going to attend then don't show up ). MsV did a good job in any case.

Saturday, was a lazy day for both of us although I thought it was time for Me to do a bit of BDSM even though littleone's fridge decided to act up and W/we needed to wait for the repairman to show but no time was fixed.. I got out the permanent maker and placed My mark on her. This is the first time I can remember I have done this and it won't be the last time either. I thought it would be nice for her if she had her tits wrapped in leather. It is always nice to see them go purple. After awhile I got up again from My computer reading and got out a small but nice leather flogger and went at her pussy and thighs :-))..

Sunday well it was washing and ironing for her, but with a little fun to think, of a couple of nipple clamps with bells attached placed on her pussy lips. After awhile she was told to get over to the hassack and kneel down and spread her legs open. Once in that position I went at her pussy nice and fast to give her a well deserved orgasm.

The rest of the day until I left was done doing vanilla shopping and talking....

For more details I am sure My littleone will be posting to her blog although she might be a tad late with it as it is her official first day at her new location of work.

Finally I have to make a note to Myself to start shaving that hairy little puss again since it looks as My littleone isn't getting every last hair on it off...

A delay that was worth it....

2009-08-01T15:01:00.003-04:00

So after a few days of delays, the anniversary celebrations have started.... To prove it here are the photos.

The first photo shows the result of a small sample test run of the sjambok that was presented to Me ( photo of it on littleone's blog ). As you can see it was/IS a success!!

The second picture shows the latest and annual Anniversary carving of the year. I am sorry that it isn't a perfect 8 but I do believe it will have to do until I get a better carving knife meant for this sole purpose.

Now, the next event for U/us heading for O/our Annual BDSM Weekend in the Woods next week. I have decided this year to spend the overnights at a local B&B instead of staying on the campsite. I do hope this change will also be a success or it will be back to the camping equipment out of the locker.

All in all, the delay of O/our anniversary was worth the delay even if littleone really wanted to be the romantic subbie ( is this allowed in a subbie ?? ) and have all the celebrations on the day of.

So, 8 years down, how many more... well tune in next year to find out....

Sir,
Owner of morningstar

This is who I am.....

2009-07-22T08:46:00.003-04:00

I am who I am and that is it !!!!

I help people, and for most cases it makes Me feel good, in other cases I do it because it is the right thing to do. Other people in the world do it on a daily bases and not because it is their job, but just because they want to.

I seem to hurt some people ( not by choice most of the time ) in helping other people. When I help out I am required to be somewhere or do something else and not with the people I should/want to be with at the same . Sometimes, hell most of the time I wish/want I could be two or more people at the time, sometimes I feel I am two or more people being pulled apart but this is MY problem to get over. I really don't mean to hurt the people I care for but it just comes out that way from time to time, I have tried to change and it just doesn't work :-( I wish I had all the correct answers but I don't and that makes Me very sad.

As the late Walter Cronkite use to say " And that's the way it is "

Take Me for what I am, a helper, a GOS ( Good Old Sir ), someone who tries and helps most of the time with success, some of the time with failures, I don't mean to hurt anyone unless they have hurt Me ( like Renovco the Montreal renovators that screwed up My house did !! )

I know the words " I am sorry " just won't cut it but those are the only ones that I can say and mean it.

Who would have thought.....

2009-07-06T20:46:00.003-04:00

Who would have thought that a simple thing like a Q-tip would send littleone around the bend.

Let Me explain, on the weekend I decided that it was time to get out the new box of needles that were sitting in the new needle box around here at the house. littleone has started her vacation although this vacation I think will be a different one from the past 8 of them as she is waiting to hear if she is going to start at a new location at work.

Well it has been awhile for some needle play as well as the fact it had been a busy day so littleone needed time to unwind but on busy days I have found that a good needle session is always good... Normally I once I have placed the needles into littleone's lovely round ass I use a chain or a knife on her to give her a sensation treat, but that evening I didn't have either handy but I noticed some of My Q-tips near by and thought what the hell, WELL you really had to be there to see her reaction to this little cotton swap, I just didn't believe it she went over the moon.

What a lovely treat for the both of U/us that evening....

Have I once again, screwed up things?

2009-06-11T10:14:00.001-04:00

Have I once again, screwed up things, I think so, ( NO I KNOW SO )? littleone has stopped blogging something she has always done and loved on a daily basis.

Over the weekend I said something to her and as usual I said it incorrectly, even though what I said needed to be said in My foolish mind. If that wasn't enough I sent her an email saying that I think there should be no more vanilla things or two houses done anymore.

Was My timing wrong HELL yes, ( she is still having flu problems ) was what I said wrong no as I have noticed more and more how upset ( My word not hers ) she was getting with dealing with these and other subjects.

I was telling a client today ( that had noticed I was very short tempered ) that everyone wants Me yet if I say no when I am overloaded they get upset when I am not there. I told her that I was between a rock and a hard place and I wasn't keeping ANYONE happy especially Me. If I drop out they will be pissed, if I stay I am going to angrier and they will get pissed too.

Honestly, I just don't know what the hell to do. I know I am not giving littleone what she wants/needs/deserves and I honestly don't know at this stage if I ever can. It isn't her fault in anyway but Mine, but I know she will blame herself and nothing I do/say will change her thinking ( there is that rock again ).

As her youngest is always saying " Sucks to be you ", what I am thinking is where is Clarence from the movie " It's a Wonderful Life " ? As I am feeling more and more like George Bailey. I have/am screwing up more things than I am fixing.

I know what I have said will make her cry, sick to her stomach and few other things, but this is what going around in My brains that is full of rocks.

Everyone seems to think I have all the answers, well this time I haven't got any and the ones I do have no one is going to like...

My subbie has a new slave...

2009-05-02T15:53:00.004-04:00

My subbie using her her slave a Nikon D60...

More to cum in her blogs I am sure :-) Since every move I or the cats do is being photographed,,,

Sir's New Toy....

2009-04-25T20:14:00.004-04:00

There it is, a Coleman RoadTrip Propane Stove.

Here is what the subbie was really doing if you read her blog on the subject:

Sorry no pictures of the Filet Migon as W/we both eat it all up, butt boy was it GOOD even without green veggies...

Something littleone said today...

2009-04-18T17:29:00.005-04:00

This evening I have invited a friend over to MY house and not to littleone's Condo to have a supper with U/us. This friend isn't into the lifestyle but does know that W/we are and accepts U/us for who W/we are and not what W/we practice, but this isn't why I am writing this blog but rather what My littleone said this morning " Don't you want me to make you proud of me "

Well, I know that this evening's dinner of Rack of Lamb, Peach Chessecake will be great and even though I am writing this now ( before supper is served ) I KNOW everything will be perfect and that littleone has done everything correct and honestly even if everything didn't work out it would STILL be perfect to Me.

So, the following image says it all....

ps: she always makes Me proud, even if things don't go the way I want/demand of her.

Happy Easter

2009-04-12T11:09:00.001-04:00

Last week's report card

2009-03-10T07:02:00.000-04:00

Well, on some levels last week with My littleone was a success and on some levels it was a failure.

The good side, littleone got her new car, I learnt how to make an egg MacMuffin well My way knot their way ....

On the failure side, I didn't Dom My littleone like I should have or would have liked to. I wasn't tough enough, demanding enough or played enough with her.

I truly wonder if I ever will be the Dom My littleone wants/needs? Oh I know she says I am doing it right for her, butt I wonder how much happier she would be if a stronger Dom that thinks and acts the way she wants comes along she would be??

I go over in My mind what I haven't done and I think I will learn for the next time, butt when the next time comes around I don't seem to get it correct :=((

Well for now back to the drawing board to see what will happen next time.

Oh, this is a picture of My Egg MacMuffin, nothing MacDonald`s has to worry about..

St. Valentine's Report

2009-02-15T10:50:00.004-05:00

It was a lovely St. Valentine's Day, it was nice to get the above card from My littleone, although it nearly got a different icing as when littleone was icing it I decided to " attack " her from behind, pity W/we didn't place the cake in between her legs since once again she was " repaired " ( she always says she is broken when I get her that way )...

Later on in the day I decided that it had been awhile since the leather thongs had been used and not wishing them to knot to go bad, I told her to get them out and well, you can see by the below picture what happened

After a lovely steak and potatoes dinner I let My littleone think that was it for the evening, butt I fooled her and when down to the dungeon and got out the " Circus and Veggie " whips and brought them back upstair. This was going to be a nice treat since they, like the leather thongs, hadn't been used for awhile. Well it wasn't long before her fairies were guiding her on the path of la-la land.

Now, today she is moving slowly and aching butt I would assume she is enjoying every minute of pain ;-)

Oh, I dropped by The Heron Clan's blog site to read swan's blog of the 14th and smiled seeing there is still old fashioned love in this world.

Well that is My report and I am sticking to it..

A failing weekend...

2009-01-26T19:15:00.006-05:00

Well the report card is in and I failed the weekend... First off W/we went to the curling outing for My military association and was it was to be My first assignment since I became an Ensign and My new position, the Garrison photographer, and the camera battery ran out of power :-( the only thing that is going to save My butt is the " old " Garrison photographer was there so he carried on taking the pictures. Oh I also found out that he was promoted to the rank of second in command at the time I becoming a Ensign, and I should have known that, another goof...

The bigger failing grade was with My littleone this weekend. I know she doesn't like change and having to show up at My new digs is a large change for her! Having her over here and without the toys she has become accustomed to was too much for her I think since Sunday was a lost cause. Oh, I tried to use a small strap that I have in My Black bag that I have to use on other subs that wish to play without using My littleone's toys ( a safety thing ), I ordered her over to a chair and to stand and I started in on her ass, nothing really so I changed to My hands and still nothing really, but I did think I would get some reaction in My mind but all I really got was an afternoon of a subbie on the sofa pouting or at least that is the way I read it.

W/we had Chinese food for Saturday's noon lunch and the left overs I thought My littleone would like to take home butt even that failed she left them all and took none home even though I told her to..

I am wondering if that old saying is really true, you can't teach an old dog new tricks for I have tried to please her in the ways of BDSM and I keep failing over and over again. I know she is a good slave/subbie/servant and deserves better, a Master that can handle all her needs not one that continues to fail the grade, I guess I should turn in My " Sir " commission?

A toy that keeps on giving after the licking

2009-01-03T10:34:00.004-05:00

Well who would have thought that a little cute item like the picture above would have My littleone saying and moving OUCH, butt it has :-)

I went to Adam and Gillian's Sensual Whips and Toys website to leave them a word or two about what a lovely product they had in this product to go along with some of their other lovely products they produce that My littleone has purchased over the past year or two butt sadly they don't have a section to leave comments thus I am doing it here.

Over the past 7 years I as well as My littlone have purchased many toys to use and I must say how impressed I am with this toy with the one exception and that is leaving " I was there " mark and I am sadly starting to believe this is never going to happen with littleone.

I am enjoying using this toy very much for a few reasons, one it feels good in My hand, two is can be used from a light swing to a heavy swing ( although I haven't used it at that level, yet ;-) but soon will be ), three it is just a pleasure using it without tiring Me out over a long session.

Well the Holiday Season has started :-(...

2008-12-26T00:05:00.004-05:00

For those that celebrate the Holiday Season to the fullest I wish you everything you look forward to.

This year the Hoilday Season was going to be a tough one in My opinion and I was/am correct, I personally don't enjoy celebrating Christmas with the exception seeing the looks and excitement of My two Non-Grandsons ( Non because they are littleone's daughter's kids and since I am knot married to littleone thus I am not Grandfather but rather Non-Grandfather ). littleone loves Christmas but it is getting very hard for her since her family is growing up and their schedules are becoming more and more hectic. This year was the start of this, her girls dropped in to have a Christmas lunch yesterday and then it was off to the other families. This morning littleone sat in her chair after being shaved ( after her 6 week punishment ) and teared up and only after pushing and pushing did I get the reason why. I won't go into detail because I am sure I won't explain perfectly ( maybe she will do it in her blog ) but I will say I was so sad that I couldn't help her at all butt rather sit there and listen to her. Personally I agree with her thinking and maybe it is time to rethink the Christmas Season with the family.

I hate it when I can't help her, for I think/know if I step in and talk to the kids I might/will screw things up more and that wouldn't help littleone out at all.

So, over the years I have become more and more a Grinch, an Ebenezer Scrooge and that way I can't/won't be hurt when things go screwy, but even with those feelings I can't help and hope that littleone's future Christmas' are better than the ones that have made her tear up and become sad.

Oh, you should see the BDSM christmas present littleone got Me ( again I hope she posts the picture on her blog I foolishly forgot My camera at home this visit ) it is wonderful!!

The Reason why....

2008-11-22T08:32:00.004-05:00

Here is just some of the reasons why I am knot over with littleone and doing all those BDSM things she is needing :-((

http://www.slide.com/r/wm5JqDTl2z-i7Cty2RlMGPb6daMkPVXH?previous_view=mscd_embedded_url&view=original

Tomorrow is the Grey Cup maybe that will make up for Me knot being with littleone today....

littleone and Sir......

2008-11-21T21:05:00.003-05:00

littleone has no Internet.....

littleone has no Sir.... ( home supervising construction ppl )

littleone has a very sore infected finger.....

littleone has something bothering her......

Sir can't help....

Sir doesn't like this at all.....

only good thing is W/we are going to the Grey Cup Game on Sunday......

Tis the season

2008-11-16T11:11:00.007-05:00

My littleone wrote about the start of Christmas season soon. I have been working hard on getting My parents house ready to be fixed up and painted at the expense of knot being able to be Sir to littleone...

Well as you can see by the below picture I found something of My Mother's that My littleone, more like Myself, can start the Xmas season off in the right spirit of the season....

HO, HO, HO.......

Addendum: Sorry for all the cunt hair, butt as I stated earlier I have been busy with other things, butt I told littleone she was to be shaved today she declined so I have decided that she can stay that way until Dec 25th.... MERRY CHRISTMAS

I just don't get !!!!

2008-11-01T21:45:00.005-04:00

I have been told that I should take more of a Dominate role in My ways and stop being a GOS ( Good Old Sir ) also come up with different ways of doing things. I have also been told that It should be all about Me and that she comes afterwards if that at all.

Well, I just did that, I told her to get down to the dungeon after I had just finished shaving her cunt hair off so I could do what I wanted to do to her that being just to play a bit with her and then make her come.

What did I get for this, a crying, upset subbie :-( A sub that was at My feet ( after I called her over from her chair ) explaining things to a now silent Dom.

I JUST DON'T FUCKING GET IT !!! Oh, she explained it to Me but it really doesn't make any sense to this old Dom, maybe I am just too old for this privilege of being a Dom, maybe I should just bag My bags and let her find the Dom that understands what she wants, needs and the way she wishes to be handled because I just don't get it !!

And I am sorry for that too....

Changes are cumming :-))

2008-10-18T21:52:00.005-04:00

Well it has been awhile since I have posted here for loads of reasons I am knot going to bore you with or get Myself in trouble with.

Over the past several months though I have been trying to change My GOS ( Good Old Sir ) ways in dealing with My littleone. I think I have been doing a good job changing to the surprise of her, like this evening when I went downstairs and got the lovely cane that she had purchased earlier this year from Adam and Gillian's Sensual Whips and Toys website. Telling her to get her ass over to the living stool was a real shock to her especially since I wouldn't show her the cane until the first swing and then it was OUCH !! then other words she used.... No warm up, no light taps just a good old fashion English caning and I LOVED every swing to her white soon to be red ass although not as red as W/we would love.

So here are the pics of the marks that were left and the means of My pleasure...

I am starting to enjoy this new change from the old ways of GOS, I just have to make sure that I don't create a new monster on My Hands....

Only time will tell and hopefully I will keep up My posts on My progress better than I have been doing in the past....

After 7 years this is all I get???

2008-07-30T00:05:00.002-04:00

This is one of the presents I received today from My littleone on O/our seventh anniversary of becoming a BDSM couple.

It got Me thinking is this all I get after 7 years, a copper Hindu pot? After all the tears ( knot all from a good spanking/flogging or other BDSM things ) that I have had to see and listen to, all the disobedience she has shown, all the stamping of feet and other things too many to mention, THIS is all I get? NO WAY !!!!!

I also get a subbie ( slave, submissive just in case you don't like subbie ) who is there for Me when I need her, when I need a shoulder to lean on, when a laugh is required, when I need a level head but most of all a subbie that is devoted to Me and O/our lifestyle.

In My opinion that is worth more than a copper Hindu pot anytime!!!! Do you think??

Sir to morningstar aka My littleone

The Runaway by Norman Rockwell

2008-07-26T16:31:00.002-04:00

There are Zippers and then.....

2008-06-06T22:20:00.005-04:00

There are zippers and then there are ZIPPERS, as My littleone found out this evening.

Y/you should have been there when I gave My littleone her gift that I had purchased since she had been feeling sick all week.

her eyes were as wide as saucers and her mouth dropped opened wide enough to be able to take a 3 inch ball gag without any troubles if I had one hanging around. she know what her gift was, that of a package of clothes pegs complete with a clothes rope to link them together. I ordered her to get started on the linking process and all I heard was " isn't it my bedtime, Sir ? " of course it wasn't not even close.

Here is what the finished product was:

sorry this was the finished results:

No need for expense....

2008-05-17T23:14:00.009-04:00

Just a quick blog about toys and the cost of them. You can go out and spend a fortune for great toys and get little reaction from Your sub/slave, then You can go out and spend almost nothing and get the greatest reaction from them, below You will see what I am talking about..

W/we were at a local party favors store getting some wedding supplies for the weddings this summer, so while My littleone was doing her thing I was browsing the store when I spotted something for a lowly price of $3.99 for a drinking tube with a chain for around the neck that is used for shot drinks. Well in a brief test in the store I held the tube and swung the chain part at littleone's arm first and OUCH could be heard, then the ass was next and DAM was heard with a smile on her face. That was it, it was a purchase....

Train wreck???

2008-05-03T16:39:00.003-04:00

What happens when a Master and a slave are too independent.... there could be a train wreck down the line :-(

So what does a Master do to cure this problem? Does he get out all the punishment tools, yell at the slave or just say nothing and keep His feels inside or worse???

Can summer be far behind??

2008-04-20T09:01:00.002-04:00

Well it is springtime in the North, for how long no one can tell, but can summer be too far behind?

As you can see My littleone is out on the patio cleaning up the winter damage. It is so nice to see her outside doing what she loves, her patio, her secret garden something I KNOW she is going to what to have up and running very soon. her meds are over and all that is left is to find out just how much they worked, personally I think they have worked and life around here is going to get back to the old ways I am Master and she is slave and if somehow that isn't to be and the meds didn't work life around here is still going to be I am Master and she is slave!

So, it is sooooooooo nice to see My littleone getting ready for summer and her secret garden :-)

Happy Easter

2008-03-23T10:10:00.001-04:00

Off to find those Easter eggs ;-))

Sir

Owner of morningstar

littleone, this is for you

2008-03-16T21:30:00.001-04:00

This afternoon as well as this weekend just didn't go the way I had to planned so the only word that I can say is what My friend about is showing to you.....

your Sir

Blackmail??? I think knot, just down right fun :-)

2008-03-04T23:55:00.007-05:00

littleone in her blog said I would blackmail her with pictures of her painting, I wouldn't blackmail her as I don't need to do that since I am her Sir and anything ( with her permission ) I say goes so I just think showing you her painting will give Y/you a good laugh like I got by watching her...

( ps: notice the red ass from a little hand spanking I did on her so this was a BDSM thing and knot a vanilla thing )

Also in another blog of littleone's she pointed out about her latest cleaning duties around the condo so why knot show Y/you these photos....

God, yeah got to love digital cameras, I know I do !

The cup runith over

2008-02-27T19:44:00.005-05:00

Well now I think you have the picture of the title of this blog... It was awhile since I have needled My littleone and I finally got to the pharmacy that W/we found in Chinatown for the needles. Unfortunately I couldn't get the .025 gauge needles and had to settle for .022 a much more flexible needle that I don't really enjoy as the bend a tad too much when I am inserting them into littleone's ass.

On My birthday W/we went down to the Fétiche Store to redeem the gift certificate that W/we had won from the Knotty International group supper a couple of months ago. I settled on a Bondage DVD and a very nice cupping set. Well I have used it a couple of times with very good success and I thought what would happen if I combined cupping and needling, well I can tell you now it was a GREAT success as the picture shows, sorry I can't film the feelings that littleone was going through but I can tell you she was in subspace for awhile after..

Sorry for the delay in bloging this

Can you ever say it enough?

2008-02-16T22:44:00.002-05:00

Several days ago it was the day for everyone that has a loved one to remember just how lucky they are to have that special someone in their lives.

Can you ever say THANKS enough? NO, and if anyone says different is truly needs to rethink their relationship. Think how lucky you are to have a partner that allows you to enjoy the lifestyle and do thinks like this:

So littleone THANKS

Sir,

Owner of morningstar

Who would have thought???

2008-01-27T16:22:00.001-05:00

that a little thing purchased at a Dollarstore would could the pain and marks that it did on My littleone, I DID !!!

I was out killing time while My littleone was with her youngest daughter looking for a wedding dress that the youngest needed for this July I dropped into the store and was looking around seeing what I could get to give My littleone after the day's shopping ( she hates shopping btw ) and there in the corner of the store I saw a bunch of rulers hanging there. Normally I would have pasted over them thinking ho hum boring but something drew Me to them and it wasn't the pretty colors but something did. When I arrived to them I noticed the words on the card that was attached to the ruler " Never Breaks " and said to Myself I doubt that with My littleone's ass and how she can break almost all the paddles, canes and others, then I noticed on the ruler itself the word " Xtraflex " so I picked it off the hook and felt that is wasn't the standard HARD plastic ruler but rather a SOFT flexible plastic one.

Well, when W/we got back from the Wedding store ( the one were the youngest got the lovely dress to be used, pssst she is going to look lovely in it ) littleone was complaining that she was broken ( her medical problem ) when she saw the package of clothes pegs ( oh I didn't tell you about them ) that was in the same bag as the ruler from hell so I knew the only thing to do was not to wait until later to use the ruler but rather order her to living room hassock and get those cotton panties down and present her ass for a sampling of the ruler from hell. My God did she yell on the first and every stroke after :-))

So who would have thought it was going to be this good? I did and W/we are so glad I did as the top right picture shows well sort of shows since her ear to ear grin never got photographed.

Bitch, bitch, bitch

2008-01-19T17:02:00.000-05:00

That is all I have heard from My littleone today and I really don't understand why she should be complainting like she is.

You will first have to go over to her blog of today to understand the first reason and set of pictures to get her first reason to bitch.

For the second reason you can see below:

Well attached to the ass...

and just to add a bit of fun to the action.

So, I ask Y/you, Do you understand why littleone is Bitching? I don't

Sir,

Owner of morningstar

What am I missing here???

2007-12-26T10:48:00.000-05:00

Well Christmas come and passed and the reviews are in.

I have a great deal of more work to be done it seems, the presents were acceptable but the presentation was lack lusted, just seems to Me that I can't get the hang of things, I wonder IF I ever will, maybe I was never cut out to be a Sir or it just in My system?? Maybe a GOS can never be a Sir, I was hoping that was never true.

littleone was counting down the days, hours, minutes to getting what she thought was going to be an all day pain session and all she really got was a pain for a Sir... oh I did give her new Christmas presents a workout but just knot the whole day she was looking forward to, God know she deserves it, but I am knot sure I will be able to fill her needs/wants/desires EVER :-((

The only thing I can come up with is to keep trying until there is nothing left in Me to honestly make littleone happy then it is My responsibility to start looking around to find that Sir Ma'am/Master Mistress/Dom Domme to fill her needs where I couldn't, then that will be the sadist day in My life.

AND littleone, I am knot saying I am leaving you..... just as you do thinking

To Everyone......

2007-12-25T08:22:00.000-05:00

Let it be known that all year Christmas is a BAH HUMBUG, butt on this day may you all have a most WONDERFUL day filled with all the love and wishes that You and your other ( whom that may be ) that your heart can hold....

....Ebenezer Sir

HO, HO, HO... The Christmas spirit has started

2007-12-21T23:03:00.000-05:00

Well on most Christmas days I am usually heard while walking around saying BAH HUMBUG and meaning it, but I must say that since I have now found a great way to hang those Christmas cards that W/we have received from O/our friends I might just start going around saying bah humbug instead but with a smile on My face.

littleone, is looking forward to this Xmas season since she got the good word from those medical Santa's and thus is also looking forward to Me giving her Xmas presents the way she likes them, and have I gone over board this season too, but have I told you I don't like Christmas, yet I do love celebrating it with littleone ;-) let's just hope she too will enjoy celebrating with the same passion after seeing what is the hanging from the chains as I will.

Look forward to her up cumming blogs in the near future discussing those presents, ohhhhh I am very, very sure she IS going to blog about them :-))

Wondering out loud about things.....

2007-11-13T18:24:00.000-05:00

Yes I know :-(( it has been a few weeks since I have blogged but life and lifestyle has gotten in the way....

I have been doing some thinking and YES it did hurt.... Lately things around here has been like a 3 ring circus between littleone's daughters getting ready for their weddings next year, the addition of houseboy and now littleone's health problems ( Mine basically I hope are over ).

The weddings:

Basically at this time I am sitting back and watching, listening and being there for littleone when the two daughters go though the trials and tribulations of getting ready for their weddings and in My mind the one up-manship that almost all sisters go through.... So My role at this time is to be there for littleone when the kids say or do something that really drives littleone to the hills and tears. I will take mental notes, be there for driving duties, and getting deals if they are in My power to get and then wait until I have to step in and protect My littleone from really getting hurt AND TRUST Me when I say this, if the wedding arrangements or the kids start/are hurting their Mom then the wedding on O/our side will be cancelled!!

The houseboy:

This was a learning curve on My side. Could a switch that has always leaned on the Dominant side really be a slave/submissive ( what ever title one wishes to use ) to a submissive that truly has never been a Dominant ( in the lifestyle ). Well the mid-terms are in as far as I am concerned and the to Me I would give an A for effort by both the parties. As for the rest well I don't think anyone has failed in their areas, but I do think as the quote goes " You can't teach an old dog new tricks ". Everyone is trying their best, but on each side they aren't happy and this isn't good in My thinking.

littleone's Health:

Here is an area that at this stage is too early to talk about since the tests, results and all that Medicial stuff that has to be done is ahead of littleone. The only thing I know, feel and MUST happen is My support is there, wants to be there, every step of the way. I still haven't understood 100% this thing littleone has, but I do trust her Doctor that has said it isn't cancer ( now I haven't talked to the Doctor directly yet, but in the past this Doctor has shown the wisdom that I do like in My Own Doctors ) so I will step back on the medical side other than driving and sitting with littleone every test, procedure that she has and then I will be there when the Doctor sits downs with US and tells U/us the results and or needed cure.

Do I have all the answers? No Am I going to have all the answers? No, BUT I sure as hell am going to do My best to see that this lifestyle that I and littleone have will remain on track ( sorry littleone, I had to mention O/our trains ) and nothing will derail O/our dreams to live it NO MATTER who tries, directly or indirectly to screw it up !!

Stay tune later the updates.......

Well it is Official.....

2007-10-28T18:36:00.000-04:00

Let it be know near and far that I along with littleone now have a houseboy and it's name is drakor.

This afternoon the three of U/us drove over to O/our favorite BDSM store Il Bolero to see Johnny and Franca about getting houseboy his collar that will now be used while he is in O/our presence at all times. When W/we got back to the Condo it was pleasure to sign, along with littleone, the contract that was worked out and agreed on finally listing his hard limits all 34 of them.

Once the pomp and ceremony was done it was back to getting on with the normal routine that being houseboy cleaning the Condo ( he is also littleone's paid cleaning person ) then littleone getting down to her taking control of him which I have no doubt she is going to post all the details about that.....

So, I have now entered a new era in My BDSM lifestyle that being a Sir to littleone and a Co-Owner of houseboy, I wonder what is next?