It would seem, no turning back....

I thought it was going to be hard for morningstar to get over this breakup ( after I had posted THAT ad ) that she started the ball rolling by asking for time to think, then changing her status to the BDSM community without a word to me first.

But it seems she has gotten over things or least is moving on fast and you know something I am happy for her and her family ( they haven't talked to me since that night ) to know they are going to do well without me. I am sad about the family although but I do understand 100% their actions.

The only thing I don't understand is this she wrote:

" Last night a couple of friends whom i respect deeply (and am so proud to be able to call them "friend") asked me a tough question. They explained that the relationship (mine specifically) was like a V. When we were together it was the point of the V ...... very close......... and they felt i was slowly moving up the V but i hadn't moved all that far....... and they asked...... "did i want to go back down the V to the point again" (ok that was very wordy and a bit convoluted - but i hope you get the gist of the conversation) " what is " V ", is it her former lover, is it vanilla lifestyle, I just don't know ??

In any case, I am happy, like I said before, she is moving on " .... in cleaning out all the cobwebs before moving forward.. or even AS i move forward."

Have a good life morningstar....

My thanks....

To everyone that has left a comment or two on Mine and morningstar's blogs I wish to thank you so much.

Those that have supported morningstar in her time of sadness I wish to thank you deeply as I know she was/is going to have a hard time, although it looks like she has a good handle on things, even planning trips in the near future.

Thanks again everyone.

Warren

ps: if anyone knows someone locally that wishes BDSM equipment drop Me a line.

Poof 9 years gone.....

9 years gone up in smoke and even though I know what happened, I still don't know what the hell happened all I know is my life as I knew it has now changed and I would think knot for the better.

Last week, the sh*t hit the fan, I am not going into the details like morningstar said in her blog " washing the dirty laundry " isn't the correct thing to do. She handed back My collar.

Although I know I screwed up, yet now I am scared that things are going to downhill from now on and as much as I do control things, somethings just aren't controllable.

I wish all the best to a person that didn't deserve having someone like me in her lifetime, may her next Master serve her better ( also mark her the way she always wanted, but I could never do ) than I did as she had served me over the past almost 9 years.

Poof, I am gone....

There are trains and then there are trains...

If you didn't already know I am into model trains as well as BDSM, what you might not know is My littleone also enjoys them.

A couple of birthdays ago littleone gave Me a HO starter set, well that lead to U/us installing it over at her condo since at the time I didn't have space over at My location. W/we placed it in the small BDSM basement room since it was not really being used :-( So a 4x8 plywood sheet was purchased and the layout started beside her treadmill, a tight but usable area.

Over the past couple of years the two pieces of equipment were really getting to be a pain and since the Grandchildren are now using the basement it was time to rethink the whole train thing. I now have the space for the layout and just needed to figure out how to get the layout out of the Condo without any damage.

Now, I am of the "old school " of train scales that being HO, littleone on the other hand enjoys the reverse, N scale. A couple weeks ago, W/we sat down and talked about the trains and she really said that I hadn't trained her how to use the DCC ( Digital Command Control ) train system and she was correct as I thought she had lost interest in the trains, but rather the fact that I hadn't finished doing the track work and the other things got in the way so the training fell between the rails. In short, she said she wanted to start a new N scale and I thought this is great news as it would solve the problem of getting the old layout out of the Condo. When I purchased the plywood for the layout I was forced to cut the 4x8 sheet into two pieces then hinge them back into place, now I could just dismantle the layout and unhinge the plywood thus it would be a perfect size for littleone's new N scale.

Now, what has that could to do with the title of this blog? well there are trains and then there are trains, and littleone found out right after O/our talk and plans of the " other " trains as you can see by the picture below.




One really has to LOVE trains in any form :-))

Doms are from Mars???

I have been thinking that Dr. Gray needs to write an updated version of this wonderful book, but for Doms and submissives...

Wondering....continued

Well, Florida Dom mentioned in My comment section of Wondering post "How red do you want her ass after you finish with hitting it?" here is some proof...





Oh, the paddle will be fixed....

Warren,
Owner of morningstar

Wondering....

I am wondering if I used the correct wording for her ( Mine ) ass??

What do you think?? I am thinking now it should have read " His Ass to hit here "...

Warren,
Owner of morningstar

Crossroads.....

It's that time of year again....

Well, before the computer dies due to lack of power ( I forgot the power at home ) I thought you might enjoy seeing littleone's present to Me....

I hope that all you had a lovely Christmas day, as I did with My loved ones.....

Sir,
Owner of morningstar

Farmville, Netbook vs BDSM

OMG, My littlone has become a computer/Farmville geek overnight....

I say this because over the weekend she purchased a lovely little HP Netbook computer and now she is setting it up, no time for BDSM....

her Farmville needs tending, no time BDSM....

Guess what, NOW IT IS TIME FOR BDSM !!!!!!!

Hope her computer won't crash, her farm won't die....

I HATE holidays, words

Well another holiday has come and gone. Words have once again got Me in trouble. I also know these words are going to get Me into trouble too, but this time I have to speak My mind ( if I ever had one ).

I used two word today after this holiday weekend and now both of U/us are unhappy, oh those words were " have to ". Now maybe I should have used another word but I was listing things so I used those words for everything.

Holidays around here are in My opinion are a pain in the ass, oh not for the fun it brings but for the aftermaths. Once the guests/family have left then it is panic mode to get things back into normal status instead of sitting back ( for a few minutes at least ) and enjoying the times goods that have just happened.

Holidays upset the routine of this house and although I can stand it, My littleone has to have everything back in its place instead of spreading things out or letting things good for a couple of days. So what if all the laundry isn't done in a day, or the house is " dirty " for a day or two. Ok, ok I know I am a Male Dom, but which is better in My mind getting in some BDSM fun in or doing the " chores " right that moment?? Hell no, it is get the chores done, and I am now sick of it, GOS ( Good Old Sir ) in the old times would have say go get the chores done, but I am suppose to be changing to a Stricter Dom, well it isn't working either. I get attitude like " have to " ?? well all that does is turn Me off of what I want to do, then who wins NO ONE.

Is there a way to cancel all holidays? unfortunately no, so I really don't know what to do, right now all I know is W/we are both unhappy, she for not getting to fly and Me for not taking her up there :-((

This has to stop because I am F@#$%king tired of feeling the way I am feeling today!!

Sir's Sunday report

Well normally My littleone writes a Monday report blog on the weekend's events or lack of them, well I thought I would get one out to Y/you before she has a good at it, also I have the pictures to show Y/you and she doesn't.

In a nut shell, the weekend really started off on Thursday instead of Friday as My littleone took O/our oldest Grandson and Myself to see " Walking with the Dinosaurs " and what a show it was. I have been trying to find the correct word to describe it and I still haven't but I would strongly suggest that if you have the change to and you are enjoy seeing " live " shows then go by all means it is worth it in My opinion.

Now moving on to Friday, I decided that W/we should attend the " FetLife " munch that was being held later that evening. It was good to see old friends that W/we hadn't seen or heard from even though the turn out wasn't as many as the hostess had planned on ( just ticks Me off that people say they are going to attend then don't show up ). MsV did a good job in any case.

Saturday, was a lazy day for both of us although I thought it was time for Me to do a bit of BDSM even though littleone's fridge decided to act up and W/we needed to wait for the repairman to show but no time was fixed.. I got out the permanent maker and placed My mark on her. This is the first time I can remember I have done this and it won't be the last time either. I thought it would be nice for her if she had her tits wrapped in leather. It is always nice to see them go purple. After awhile I got up again from My computer reading and got out a small but nice leather flogger and went at her pussy and thighs :-))..

Sunday well it was washing and ironing for her, but with a little fun to think, of a couple of nipple clamps with bells attached placed on her pussy lips. After awhile she was told to get over to the hassack and kneel down and spread her legs open. Once in that position I went at her pussy nice and fast to give her a well deserved orgasm.

The rest of the day until I left was done doing vanilla shopping and talking....

For more details I am sure My littleone will be posting to her blog although she might be a tad late with it as it is her official first day at her new location of work.

Finally I have to make a note to Myself to start shaving that hairy little puss again since it looks as My littleone isn't getting every last hair on it off...

A delay that was worth it....

So after a few days of delays, the anniversary celebrations have started.... To prove it here are the photos.

The first photo shows the result of a small sample test run of the sjambok that was presented to Me ( photo of it on littleone's blog ). As you can see it was/IS a success!!


The second picture shows the latest and annual Anniversary carving of the year. I am sorry that it isn't a perfect 8 but I do believe it will have to do until I get a better carving knife meant for this sole purpose.



Now, the next event for U/us heading for O/our Annual BDSM Weekend in the Woods next week. I have decided this year to spend the overnights at a local B&B instead of staying on the campsite. I do hope this change will also be a success or it will be back to the camping equipment out of the locker.

All in all, the delay of O/our anniversary was worth the delay even if littleone really wanted to be the romantic subbie ( is this allowed in a subbie ?? ) and have all the celebrations on the day of.

So, 8 years down, how many more... well tune in next year to find out....

Sir,
Owner of morningstar

This is who I am.....

I am who I am and that is it !!!!

I help people, and for most cases it makes Me feel good, in other cases I do it because it is the right thing to do. Other people in the world do it on a daily bases and not because it is their job, but just because they want to.

I seem to hurt some people ( not by choice most of the time ) in helping other people. When I help out I am required to be somewhere or do something else and not with the people I should/want to be with at the same . Sometimes, hell most of the time I wish/want I could be two or more people at the time, sometimes I feel I am two or more people being pulled apart but this is MY problem to get over. I really don't mean to hurt the people I care for but it just comes out that way from time to time, I have tried to change and it just doesn't work :-( I wish I had all the correct answers but I don't and that makes Me very sad.

As the late Walter Cronkite use to say " And that's the way it is "

Take Me for what I am, a helper, a GOS ( Good Old Sir ), someone who tries and helps most of the time with success, some of the time with failures, I don't mean to hurt anyone unless they have hurt Me ( like Renovco the Montreal renovators that screwed up My house did !! )

I know the words " I am sorry " just won't cut it but those are the only ones that I can say and mean it.

Who would have thought.....

Who would have thought that a simple thing like a Q-tip would send littleone around the bend.

Let Me explain, on the weekend I decided that it was time to get out the new box of needles that were sitting in the new needle box around here at the house. littleone has started her vacation although this vacation I think will be a different one from the past 8 of them as she is waiting to hear if she is going to start at a new location at work.

Well it has been awhile for some needle play as well as the fact it had been a busy day so littleone needed time to unwind but on busy days I have found that a good needle session is always good... Normally I once I have placed the needles into littleone's lovely round ass I use a chain or a knife on her to give her a sensation treat, but that evening I didn't have either handy but I noticed some of My Q-tips near by and thought what the hell, WELL you really had to be there to see her reaction to this little cotton swap, I just didn't believe it she went over the moon.

What a lovely treat for the both of U/us that evening....

Have I once again, screwed up things?

Have I once again, screwed up things, I think so, ( NO I KNOW SO )? littleone has stopped blogging something she has always done and loved on a daily basis.

Over the weekend I said something to her and as usual I said it incorrectly, even though what I said needed to be said in My foolish mind. If that wasn't enough I sent her an email saying that I think there should be no more vanilla things or two houses done anymore.

Was My timing wrong HELL yes, ( she is still having flu problems ) was what I said wrong no as I have noticed more and more how upset ( My word not hers ) she was getting with dealing with these and other subjects.

I was telling a client today ( that had noticed I was very short tempered ) that everyone wants Me yet if I say no when I am overloaded they get upset when I am not there. I told her that I was between a rock and a hard place and I wasn't keeping ANYONE happy especially Me. If I drop out they will be pissed, if I stay I am going to angrier and they will get pissed too.

Honestly, I just don't know what the hell to do. I know I am not giving littleone what she wants/needs/deserves and I honestly don't know at this stage if I ever can. It isn't her fault in anyway but Mine, but I know she will blame herself and nothing I do/say will change her thinking ( there is that rock again ).

As her youngest is always saying " Sucks to be you ", what I am thinking is where is Clarence from the movie " It's a Wonderful Life " ? As I am feeling more and more like George Bailey. I have/am screwing up more things than I am fixing.

I know what I have said will make her cry, sick to her stomach and few other things, but this is what going around in My brains that is full of rocks.

Everyone seems to think I have all the answers, well this time I haven't got any and the ones I do have no one is going to like...

My subbie has a new slave...

My subbie using her her slave a Nikon D60...



More to cum in her blogs I am sure :-) Since every move I or the cats do is being photographed,,,

Sir's New Toy....

There it is, a Coleman RoadTrip Propane Stove.

Here is what the subbie was really doing if you read her blog on the subject:

Sorry no pictures of the Filet Migon as W/we both eat it all up, butt boy was it GOOD even without green veggies...

Something littleone said today...

This evening I have invited a friend over to MY house and not to littleone's Condo to have a supper with U/us. This friend isn't into the lifestyle but does know that W/we are and accepts U/us for who W/we are and not what W/we practice, but this isn't why I am writing this blog but rather what My littleone said this morning " Don't you want me to make you proud of me "

Well, I know that this evening's dinner of Rack of Lamb, Peach Chessecake will be great and even though I am writing this now ( before supper is served ) I KNOW everything will be perfect and that littleone has done everything correct and honestly even if everything didn't work out it would STILL be perfect to Me.

So, the following image says it all....



ps: she always makes Me proud, even if things don't go the way I want/demand of her.

Happy Easter