Saturday, December 31, 2005

What a Gem......

Sapphire
! You are most Like A Sapphire !
Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. You have a
deep beauty. Delicate, and shy you try to stay away from
the limelight but often your intelligence puts you in
at the deep end. You're like a Sapphire, because, your
beauty is priceless.
You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not
big-headed about it all.
Sometimes you need to put yourself out there, as
you can be a bit shy.
Congratulations ... You're the mysterious gem
everybody wants to have and learn more about.


?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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Sunday, December 18, 2005

Failed???


I am sitting here watching My littleone running around the place like a busy bee and also sad at the same time and I am wondered why I have failed her so badly...

Since I walked into the condo on Friday and was greeted with a crying and wired subbie, I haven't been able to figure out what to do.... should I turn around and go back home?, should I strip her bare and beat the hell out of her?, should I take her in My arms and hold her until she is back?, honestly I just don't know thus I have failed her and Me....

I know I am second guessing Myself when I think of what I should to and really just do what is in My heart and the back of My mind, but I have always been this way when there is a serious problem and in the long run I usually do the wrong thing when it comes to people's emotions and I end up hurting them even though My actions were clearly meant to do just the opposite effect and that makes Me sad...

So, I have failed since a Dom should make sure He is always in control, something I am clearly not at the moment, for if a Dom is not in control how can He control something He holds most dear to Him, so I have failed and if there was a CEO of Doms, then I would have been fired or at best demoted....

I have been thinking lately that maybe I am not the Dom that I think I am or should be and what is the next step I need to take, before something goes seriously wrong??

Back to the drawing board.... It ain't over yet I hope...

Sunday, December 11, 2005

It's a Wonderful Life...style !!

Well, it is Sunday night and I have just place littleone into bed after a weekend of mixed things...
On Friday when I arrived at the condo I was greeted to a guest that I didn't know was going to drop in but did know that she was going to show up someday looking for her DVD that I filmed for her during the summer.... That sort of screwed up My plans for a FULL weekend of D/s that littleone needed so badly....

Well after a 4 hour visit from O/our friend littleone got down to making supper for U/s and I rethinking the schedule of pain and pleasure for My chattel.... Once supper was completed and everything was cleared up W/we headed for the living room and to watch those good old shows Adam-12 and Have Gun Will Travel... I could tell that littleone was thinking to herself ( one of the two things I can't seem to stop littleone from doing ) here W/we go again just another boring night watching TV something she truly hates, but I fooled her ordering her downstairs to the dungeon for a sound beating that she wrote about in her journal that she better describes than I can....

On Saturday were more beatings of her ass to the point that all I could hear from her was her ass was hurting and would come duck every time I would come near her ass... Later that evening I decided that W/we should see how many small clothes pegs I could place on My littleone, unfortunately not as many as W/we both would like to have place, so I changed to large pegs to finish off My littleone, but I am very happy with the amount of little pegs that littleone was able to handle and that made Me very proud of My subbie....



















Some time Sunday afternoon after littleone finished with the Xmas decorations

littleone's cheekiness caused her some trouble, unfortunately I can remember her exact words but they did cause Me to order her upstairs to the bedroom to find/get " Bertha " and the KY jelly... You should have seen her eyes of surprise with that command and even more when I arrived at the bedroom doorway... Once again that old " GOS" wasn't around to save her asshole, but the new Sir just reached for it and preceded with lubing up " Bertha " and headed for that underused asshole to have My fun and her embarassment... Once after I was finished playing she ran towards the commode at full speed and shutting the door... A few mins later, she was standing in front of Me asking if she could have a bath, seeing the look in her eyes I granted her permission to have one since in My opinion she had earned that right....

As for the rest of the day W/we basically laid back and reviewed all the fun W/we had over the weekend and wondered what laid in store for next weekend fun.....