Have I once again, screwed up things?

Have I once again, screwed up things, I think so, ( NO I KNOW SO )? littleone has stopped blogging something she has always done and loved on a daily basis.

Over the weekend I said something to her and as usual I said it incorrectly, even though what I said needed to be said in My foolish mind. If that wasn't enough I sent her an email saying that I think there should be no more vanilla things or two houses done anymore.

Was My timing wrong HELL yes, ( she is still having flu problems ) was what I said wrong no as I have noticed more and more how upset ( My word not hers ) she was getting with dealing with these and other subjects.

I was telling a client today ( that had noticed I was very short tempered ) that everyone wants Me yet if I say no when I am overloaded they get upset when I am not there. I told her that I was between a rock and a hard place and I wasn't keeping ANYONE happy especially Me. If I drop out they will be pissed, if I stay I am going to angrier and they will get pissed too.

Honestly, I just don't know what the hell to do. I know I am not giving littleone what she wants/needs/deserves and I honestly don't know at this stage if I ever can. It isn't her fault in anyway but Mine, but I know she will blame herself and nothing I do/say will change her thinking ( there is that rock again ).

As her youngest is always saying " Sucks to be you ", what I am thinking is where is Clarence from the movie " It's a Wonderful Life " ? As I am feeling more and more like George Bailey. I have/am screwing up more things than I am fixing.

I know what I have said will make her cry, sick to her stomach and few other things, but this is what going around in My brains that is full of rocks.

Everyone seems to think I have all the answers, well this time I haven't got any and the ones I do have no one is going to like...

My subbie has a new slave...

My subbie using her her slave a Nikon D60...



More to cum in her blogs I am sure :-) Since every move I or the cats do is being photographed,,,

Sir's New Toy....

There it is, a Coleman RoadTrip Propane Stove.

Here is what the subbie was really doing if you read her blog on the subject:

Sorry no pictures of the Filet Migon as W/we both eat it all up, butt boy was it GOOD even without green veggies...

Something littleone said today...

This evening I have invited a friend over to MY house and not to littleone's Condo to have a supper with U/us. This friend isn't into the lifestyle but does know that W/we are and accepts U/us for who W/we are and not what W/we practice, but this isn't why I am writing this blog but rather what My littleone said this morning " Don't you want me to make you proud of me "

Well, I know that this evening's dinner of Rack of Lamb, Peach Chessecake will be great and even though I am writing this now ( before supper is served ) I KNOW everything will be perfect and that littleone has done everything correct and honestly even if everything didn't work out it would STILL be perfect to Me.

So, the following image says it all....



ps: she always makes Me proud, even if things don't go the way I want/demand of her.

Happy Easter

Last week's report card

Well, on some levels last week with My littleone was a success and on some levels it was a failure.

The good side, littleone got her new car, I learnt how to make an egg MacMuffin well My way knot their way ....

On the failure side, I didn't Dom My littleone like I should have or would have liked to. I wasn't tough enough, demanding enough or played enough with her.

I truly wonder if I ever will be the Dom My littleone wants/needs? Oh I know she says I am doing it right for her, butt I wonder how much happier she would be if a stronger Dom that thinks and acts the way she wants comes along she would be??

I go over in My mind what I haven't done and I think I will learn for the next time, butt when the next time comes around I don't seem to get it correct :=((

Well for now back to the drawing board to see what will happen next time.

Oh, this is a picture of My Egg MacMuffin, nothing MacDonald`s has to worry about..

St. Valentine's Report

It was a lovely St. Valentine's Day, it was nice to get the above card from My littleone, although it nearly got a different icing as when littleone was icing it I decided to " attack " her from behind, pity W/we didn't place the cake in between her legs since once again she was " repaired " ( she always says she is broken when I get her that way )...

Later on in the day I decided that it had been awhile since the leather thongs had been used and not wishing them to knot to go bad, I told her to get them out and well, you can see by the below picture what happened

After a lovely steak and potatoes dinner I let My littleone think that was it for the evening, butt I fooled her and when down to the dungeon and got out the " Circus and Veggie " whips and brought them back upstair. This was going to be a nice treat since they, like the leather thongs, hadn't been used for awhile. Well it wasn't long before her fairies were guiding her on the path of la-la land.

Now, today she is moving slowly and aching butt I would assume she is enjoying every minute of pain ;-)

Oh, I dropped by The Heron Clan's blog site to read swan's blog of the 14th and smiled seeing there is still old fashioned love in this world.

Well that is My report and I am sticking to it..