Proud, and happy about it...

Well, there is something that is LONG overdue in saying......

I am proud of

morningstar, My littleone...

Although I have always thought that in My mind and in My heart, I really don't say it enough or correctly to her or to the BDSM world out there..

Over the past 5 years almost, she has made Me proud that she has choosen Me to be her Sir.

1. she has made Me proud that she has put up with My demands....
2. she has made Me proud of the way she has taken the whipings/floggings that I have given her even when they have gone to far or knot the correct way they should have been given...
3. she has made Me proud of the way she has conducted herself when I have invited guests over to the Condo or given a party....
4. she has made Me proud the way she organizes the Sunday Monthly Munches.....
5. she has made Me proud of the way she had dealt with her job and the stupid way they run things....
6. she had made Me proud of the way she deals with My vanilla world friends.....

I am sure that I have missed a lot more things that My littleone makes Me proud of her....

There is something else, she will always make Me proud even if she screws up on something.....

My littleone is ill....

My littleone has been sick with a flu that is a kicker and that has Me sad for a couple of reasons.

The first reason is very clear she is sick.... and littleone it isn't your fault so don't get upset about knot being there to serve Me is this weekend....

The second reason and the one that really gets Me, I can't do anything for her as she really hates anyone being around her when she is sick. In the past I have just told her tough luck, I am Sir and I will be around you, care for you but this time I know the best thing to do is let My littleone rest on her own....

The third reason, it has been almost 5 years since I can call the weekend Mine and there was nothing planned, no one to play with or be with to see things happening ( i.e. CLoud training his lastest subbie karis) or going to a Fetish Fair. Well, I have spent sometime getting old things ready for the recycling bin, something I have been wanting/needing to do for a long, long time although I still have a long way to go but it is a start but where are those folks from TLC's " Clean Sweep " when you need them?...

Well, I think I am going to jump into the car to go and get a Tim Horton's coffee to drown My saddness and to think up new ways to play with My littleone when she is feeling up to it again, so look outlook My littleone.....

Get well soon My littleone and I will bring you a Tim Horton's French Vanilla coffee....

Toys, New and old ones....

Well, as littleone is always telling Me ( and she is right, psst don't tell her I said that ) "boys and their toys"..... well I have just changed to another new one, an HP iPaq 6515 cell phone and PDA combined unit. Although My other PDA and cell phone are working just fine honestly I was getting tired of looking like a 21st century gun slinger, a cell phone on My left hip and My PDA on My right hip and the pants falling down from all the weight hanging from My belt.

I must tell you that I am getting to get used to the new toy ( and loving the new features ) although it did called littleone late one night while she was asleep and I was testing out some of the new features...

And while on the subject of toys, over the weekend I have rediscovered an old toy that has become My latest new toy and at the same time littleone's latest hated toy ( if that can ever happen that she has a hated toy ), of course I speak of My last year"s birthday present from My littleone, the snake whip. While My littleone was standing looking out the window and dream dreaming of something like when was I going to start giving her a dam good flogging or a bondage session I picked up the whip and flicked it with more wrist movement than I have ever done before, causing it to make the loudest cracking sound I had ever made before and only hear that sound and loudness from a bull whip at the annual DSSG S/Mer BDSM camp. I don't know who was more surprised Myself or littleone as it hit her ass dead on! but I had just learnt something new about an old toy, it had more power than I have ever known before, and you know what? I LOVED it. I am sure if there was a picture of My facial expression taken at that moment in time it would have shown every one of My teeth. I do know that it sure made littleone jump and her eyes pop out of their sockets.

It just goes to show you, that you never know what your toys can do until you have tried different ways of using them, something I am going to have to reconsider about all the other old toys.

So beware littleone, YOU have been warned......