Back from the hospital

Well it is now 6AM the day after My surgery for that " Male problem, a hydrocele " and all is well so far, I always give it a good 24hrs before I say everything is 100%... My thoat is a bit sore though from the air tube the " sleep " doctor had to place during the operation....

However, I can't say that for My subbie nurse, littleone she was wiped out yesterday and she is STILL in bed a good 30 mins passed her wake up call to get to work. she knew this was going to happen and made sure that work had a stand-in until she got there.

I really want to thank My littleone for all her efforts yesterday, from the moment W/we left for the Montreal General Hospital ( a great bunch of ppl ) to the moment she headed off to bed last night. Sadly to say though she was not treated nicely from the Day Surgery Info staff though and that really got her. I will make it a point to make a note of that on the check out comment card...

For those that are interested and for those that aren't, since this is My blog, here are a before and after picture of My problem. For any fella out there it looks worse that it is. However if I had to do it again I wouldn't have waited so long to go and have it done it was almost a year by the time this was done.

What I really wrote this blog for was to THANK My nurse littleone that has now just got up ( 6:45am) and is on her way to a functioning day after the morning coffee and cig..

A Rock and a hard place

I don't know why I am really writing this blog as I am dam sure it is going to cause trouble down the line, but this seems to be the week for that.....

Certainly I am sure, other Doms have gone though the same, if knot, the exact thing I am going through and that is the Vanilla world is butting into the BDSM world and it is making them guilty that they aren't there for their submissive.

This week My littleone is on " Spring Break " from work, something she always looks forward to in a BIG way since it falls almost at the end of Canadian Income Tax time and this year was worse since the fools in the " head office " decided to screw up the computer system in a big way. littleone, always takes getting things correctly done personally so the tension around the condo has been a nightmare. Every time I put out one fire for her another one would start. Now that her troubles are behind her she was thinking/hoping/wishing that I could/would/should beat the hell out of her, tie her up into knots for hours, D/s her every minute of the week, WELL it didn't happen and even if she wouldn't say it/hasen't said it.... she is upset and I don't blame her!!

As the week has progressed My D/s side has been pushed to the limit since My vanilla side has made Me be strong and full of decisions that should have been made by others but haven't. What this has caused Me to feel so dam guilty I am about ready to jump off the nearest bridge and the only reason I haven't is there are 3 to choose from and I am fed up of making decisions.... or just maybe go and hibernate under the nearest rock....

I am feeling caught between a rock and a hard place.....

So fellow Dom's here is the question:

What do I do to make sure My littleone isn't upset and still maintain My sanity?