4th Anniversary

Well, it was our 4th and not our 3rd anniversary on Friday as littleone had written in her lovely story that she gave Me along with the foot high Geisha and Samurai figures...


littleone thought that I have forgotten O/our anniversary when I showed up at the condo without her present, well I hadn't forgotten to purchase her present, but rather I thought that Friday wasn't the 29th but rather the 28th( something everyone does from time to time ). I was sad when she handed Me her present to Me while I had forgotten My present to her at My place, but in the long run it worked out even better as I told littleone to get dressed so W/we could head out for the house then I would take her out to dinner at her favorite Chinese place that just happens to be in My hometown...

To finish off the anniversary I decided that littleone needed a good flogging but only using one of the many toys W/we have, so this morning I pulled her to the dungeon by the hair and showed her the wall of toys while I decided which one I was going to use. I then decided that the only toy that would work from start to finish was a lovely tawse...

I dragged littleone to the new little dungeon and draped her over the pony, lifted up her t-shirt and started in on her.. It was a lovely sight to see her knees go weak with every hit of the tawse... My pleasure lasted for a good 30 mins until littleone could no long stay up on her legs... But the last of the anniversary present was still waiting for her up stairs... Once back in the living room with the open bay window for all to see I place littleone over the lazy boy chair so I could take some pictures of the tawse marks that were left on her ass, then once the shots had been taken I finger fucked her wet pussy until she yelled that she needed to cum, so I gave her permission and then she dropped to her pillow on the floor to go and enjoy the sub space that I had taken her to..

So, Happy 4th Anniversary My littleone :-))

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

subbie's vacations???

This morning while littleone was getting My breakfast W/we were talking about the fact that her journal was over 30 mins late. She pointed out to Me that she was on holidays from work so why should her journal still have to be done by 7:30am since she wasn't working??

My thinking is simple, her journal has nothing to do with her work schedule but rather to O/our lifestyle. Why would she think that a subbie task like a daily journal is based on her work schedule other than I want it before her work day starts and since her work day starts before 8:00am with travelling time taken into consideration??

The only exception in My mind would be if W/we have been out late the night before and then sleep has been limited and I really would like a journal that would have more than just " here is Your journal Sir " or words like that...

So, since this relationship of O/ours is a 24/7 one, then I strongly believe that My chattel better take notice from this point on that the punishment will be enforced 2 smacks on her bare ass for every minute late.

Here's My results.....

Master! You are 73% Dominant and 12% Submissive!

That below is your playroom. You know how to command attention... and another. You know all there is to know about 'teaching.' You got a Ph.D. in pain. If your score is high enough I bet you're a sadist! Anyway, I'd better get out of your way.... Master.

Thank God I got what I did or I would have to look for a new line of pleasure..... and I guess I still have too much GOS ( good old Sir ) still in Me....

What am I doing to do???

Since this early afternoon littleone's mood has Me going nuts, she has gone from laughter and enjoyment to tears and almost total silence....

This mood is not something new for her, but My feelings of not being in control is.... on one hand I want to just lean over and punish her for her actions ( but if I do she might/will think I am just doing for her or she shouldn't be punished at all ) or lack of and then on the other hand I can't undertstand where this is all coming from... her mood changed this time with an offer of having coffee and a swim with a pink pantie subbie friend of O/ours along with her BDSM daughter.... When I asked what was happening the most she really said was " she couldn't explain it to Me " and the more I pushed the more she went and "hid" behind her wall of silence...

When I walked in the condo on Friday I was greeted with " I am going to be a good subbie all weekend long", well today I would say that has gone out the window.. Last night W/we had a BDSM equipment swap meet with some of O/our friends, an idea that littleone came up with and in My mind (and I am sure the others there too) a GREAT idea... littleone made Me very proud of the evening and it's success...

Over the past month or so I feel I have lost the control, respect of her that I once had and I am not sure what the next step is.....but I do know that I getting upset, tired with this attitude... I am starting to think that this subbie has become disatified with her Sir, God knows I have tried to be the Dominate in her life over this time period, but she has not listened to what I have tried to do or ordered her to DO.....

So what do I do??? When I talk to her I seem to send her into tears or I put My foot into My mouth more, so what do I do???

she is worth the fight, but I am tired of getting up everyday and fighting with My world...