It was something that she said a little while ago, " that her Sir wasn't there " and that hit Me right between the eyes and shook Me up big time. Where had I gone?, Where was I ? and Where was I going? rolled around My mind for days.... At one point I had even thought of telling littleone that I was cancelling the weekend, but I had newbie BDSM guests showing up for a mini-formal BDSM dinner and I didn't wish to do anything to stop their learning the BDSM lifestyle that I and littleone live.....
When I did arrive at the condo My mind frame was still going over those questions and what was I going to do?? Normally, when I arrive at the condo, if W/we don't have anywhere to go, I sit down and have littleone get Me a drink of something and I unwind from the traffic jam that I have just driven threw. This time wasn't much different although littleone started almost from the time she sat at My feet to tell Me about her problems at work. Usually I will sit back and let her go on about the problems, but with My thoughts racing around, I was only going to put up with only so much and then enough was enough... It was down to the dungeon and littleone was going to get a flogging....
I really didn't have a plan on what I was going to do or use on littleone but I knew in My mind I needed to get back to a position of " LORD and MASTER " over My property. In the past I have always thought of what equipment I was going to use and just how hard I was going to use it, but knot this time, this time was going to have to be very different in My mind or I was going to lose something that I had worked so hard to get and retain and that was My littleone. This time in My mind I was going to have to take TOTAL control and stop the session ONLY when I wanted to stop and knot when I felt littleone had had enough. I was going to hit long and hard something that I never normally do in that combination. So I started like usual placing her on the Andrew's Cross with a set of cuffs that I am getting fed up with and will have to plan a trip to Il Bolero or Northbound ( a couple of local fetish stores in the area ) to get the cuffs I really have always wanted. Once she was attached to the cross I looked at the wall of floggers, whips and paddles that W/we have collected over the past 4 years. Honestly, at this time I can't remember what toys I started with or even used but I do know that I used almost every " hard " toy that was on that wall. I basically didn't even get littleone a good " warm-up " that she is use to. I got down to the session and about half way ( 30 mins ) it hit ME.... I AM the one that is in charge and NOTHING that is going to be said or things that I do will change the fact that I am littleone's Sir and if she thinks I am knot there well so be it, that will be her problem not mind because when I am ready to act like " her " Sir then I will and SHE had better get use to these " non Sir " times. It is knot My actions that make Me Sir but rather what I feel in My mind and heart that makes Me Sir and since in My mind I am a 24/7 Sir even if I am knot around My training, tasks, wishes, wants and commands better ALWAYS be the only thing in littleone's submissive mind or I have lost the submissive that I have claimed as MINE!! God did I feel great and continued with the session until I was totally finished in mind and body...
W/we have spent sometime getting O/our little dungeon to a way that W/we can play in comfort and get full enjoyment out of it. Although I found out this weekend that this is going to be an ongoing project no matter if I feel it is finished to the way a private home dungeon can be. Here is a collage of some pictures I took after W/we redesigned it since now the " family " accepts littleone's " kink " and W/we can be more honest to our BDSM lifestyle.. I just guess I am going to have to use that bondage book I got " The Better Built Bondage Book " more often...
As for the rest of the weekend, well I see that My littleone has done a blog on it " Giving back " and don't wish to go over it again....
All I can say is that the BDSM Gods have shown Me the way and I learnt what I did during that Friday session was required and every Dominant should have the same feeling sometime during their rule....
Sir, proud owner of morningstar
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