Doms Are from Mars, subbies Are from Venus*

I have often wondered why God gave U/us emotions, they only get U/us into troubles that W/we truly didn't ask for sometimes..

Over the past weekend ( and longer too ) My subbie, littleone, has been troubled, mostly in My opinion by her own emotions. By thinking that I am up to something, getting another submissive, tired of her, disappointed in her, etc.. and I am going to release her. her mind is playing a mind fuck on her better than I ever could ( pity I am missing all that fun ) and no matter what I say or do she is acting like it is true...

Well, she just might get her wish for I can't take many more emotional outbursts that the one I was dealing with today ( totally moody ), even though I have & gladly wanted to put in a great deal of time, money and emotions in this relationship of Sir/submissive I am getting to the end of the My rope trying to deal with her emotions and how to deal with them.

I know I haven't been able to D/s her the way she wants fully. Maybe I am not the correct Dom for her and I am just fooling Myself that I am. Just maybe I should release her so she can find the correct Dom that will beat her ass every hour of the day and night, a Dom that can support her financially, mentally and most importantly emotionally.

I honestly don't know what to do anymore, I have told her, talked to others in the lifestyle about this and sadly, very sadly I just don't know anymore.....

* Sorry Dr. J. Grey, author of " Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus ", for stealing your title for My title.

So, the cunt is horny huh???

Well first things first, I have just been to see the Doctor for the follow-up appointment for my past surgery and have been a clean bill of health today although the Doctor tells Me that everything should take about 6 months to fully heal, but as it stands now he is very happy with what he saw and touched ( sorry littleone he was first in line ).....

Now as for My littleone's cunt needs, when she gets home from work she will have an email task from Me.... In part this is what she has to do:

Once you have read all your emails you will get your special toy and fuck your cunt until you cum....... then you can get on with things around the house, until the next hour then you will do it this again and EVERY HOUR until you have your bath.... then you will do it again while you are in bed then you can go to sleep.....

Also, except for the one in bed you WILL text message Me every hour with this text message: Sir, i have fucked my horny cunt and i thank you for allowing me to cum.

This should ( although I don't think so ) make her think twice about saying that her Sir doesn't understand her needs, I understand them more than she really knows. I am knot sorry that people think I am a " GOS " ( Good Old Sir ) because that is Me and even when I have to be a GOS I am a Dom too and somehow I am going to have to drill that into littleone's mind or at best her ass!!

On another point, I want to tell a couple of My BDSM friends ( they know who I am talking about ) that have been having relationship problems that they have My support and help if they need to call on Me for it....

Well, that is all I have to say for now with the exception that I can hardly wait to read littleone's next blog post after she finishes her latest task..

" Sir, You just don't get it "

Those are the words My littleone said last weekend and I can't get them out of My head. If she is correct then what is the next step I am going to have to take?

Maybe I am totally wrong in the way I think what having a submissive is?
Maybe I am totally wrong the way I believe My littleone should behave?
Maybe I am totally wrong for wanting things done My way?

I suppose only time is going to tell.......

Back from the hospital

Well it is now 6AM the day after My surgery for that " Male problem, a hydrocele " and all is well so far, I always give it a good 24hrs before I say everything is 100%... My thoat is a bit sore though from the air tube the " sleep " doctor had to place during the operation....

However, I can't say that for My subbie nurse, littleone she was wiped out yesterday and she is STILL in bed a good 30 mins passed her wake up call to get to work. she knew this was going to happen and made sure that work had a stand-in until she got there.

I really want to thank My littleone for all her efforts yesterday, from the moment W/we left for the Montreal General Hospital ( a great bunch of ppl ) to the moment she headed off to bed last night. Sadly to say though she was not treated nicely from the Day Surgery Info staff though and that really got her. I will make it a point to make a note of that on the check out comment card...

For those that are interested and for those that aren't, since this is My blog, here are a before and after picture of My problem. For any fella out there it looks worse that it is. However if I had to do it again I wouldn't have waited so long to go and have it done it was almost a year by the time this was done.

What I really wrote this blog for was to THANK My nurse littleone that has now just got up ( 6:45am) and is on her way to a functioning day after the morning coffee and cig..

A Rock and a hard place

I don't know why I am really writing this blog as I am dam sure it is going to cause trouble down the line, but this seems to be the week for that.....

Certainly I am sure, other Doms have gone though the same, if knot, the exact thing I am going through and that is the Vanilla world is butting into the BDSM world and it is making them guilty that they aren't there for their submissive.

This week My littleone is on " Spring Break " from work, something she always looks forward to in a BIG way since it falls almost at the end of Canadian Income Tax time and this year was worse since the fools in the " head office " decided to screw up the computer system in a big way. littleone, always takes getting things correctly done personally so the tension around the condo has been a nightmare. Every time I put out one fire for her another one would start. Now that her troubles are behind her she was thinking/hoping/wishing that I could/would/should beat the hell out of her, tie her up into knots for hours, D/s her every minute of the week, WELL it didn't happen and even if she wouldn't say it/hasen't said it.... she is upset and I don't blame her!!

As the week has progressed My D/s side has been pushed to the limit since My vanilla side has made Me be strong and full of decisions that should have been made by others but haven't. What this has caused Me to feel so dam guilty I am about ready to jump off the nearest bridge and the only reason I haven't is there are 3 to choose from and I am fed up of making decisions.... or just maybe go and hibernate under the nearest rock....

I am feeling caught between a rock and a hard place.....

So fellow Dom's here is the question:

What do I do to make sure My littleone isn't upset and still maintain My sanity?

Proud, and happy about it...

Well, there is something that is LONG overdue in saying......

I am proud of

morningstar, My littleone...

Although I have always thought that in My mind and in My heart, I really don't say it enough or correctly to her or to the BDSM world out there..

Over the past 5 years almost, she has made Me proud that she has choosen Me to be her Sir.

1. she has made Me proud that she has put up with My demands....
2. she has made Me proud of the way she has taken the whipings/floggings that I have given her even when they have gone to far or knot the correct way they should have been given...
3. she has made Me proud of the way she has conducted herself when I have invited guests over to the Condo or given a party....
4. she has made Me proud the way she organizes the Sunday Monthly Munches.....
5. she has made Me proud of the way she had dealt with her job and the stupid way they run things....
6. she had made Me proud of the way she deals with My vanilla world friends.....

I am sure that I have missed a lot more things that My littleone makes Me proud of her....

There is something else, she will always make Me proud even if she screws up on something.....

My littleone is ill....

My littleone has been sick with a flu that is a kicker and that has Me sad for a couple of reasons.

The first reason is very clear she is sick.... and littleone it isn't your fault so don't get upset about knot being there to serve Me is this weekend....

The second reason and the one that really gets Me, I can't do anything for her as she really hates anyone being around her when she is sick. In the past I have just told her tough luck, I am Sir and I will be around you, care for you but this time I know the best thing to do is let My littleone rest on her own....

The third reason, it has been almost 5 years since I can call the weekend Mine and there was nothing planned, no one to play with or be with to see things happening ( i.e. CLoud training his lastest subbie karis) or going to a Fetish Fair. Well, I have spent sometime getting old things ready for the recycling bin, something I have been wanting/needing to do for a long, long time although I still have a long way to go but it is a start but where are those folks from TLC's " Clean Sweep " when you need them?...

Well, I think I am going to jump into the car to go and get a Tim Horton's coffee to drown My saddness and to think up new ways to play with My littleone when she is feeling up to it again, so look outlook My littleone.....

Get well soon My littleone and I will bring you a Tim Horton's French Vanilla coffee....

Toys, New and old ones....

Well, as littleone is always telling Me ( and she is right, psst don't tell her I said that ) "boys and their toys"..... well I have just changed to another new one, an HP iPaq 6515 cell phone and PDA combined unit. Although My other PDA and cell phone are working just fine honestly I was getting tired of looking like a 21st century gun slinger, a cell phone on My left hip and My PDA on My right hip and the pants falling down from all the weight hanging from My belt.

I must tell you that I am getting to get used to the new toy ( and loving the new features ) although it did called littleone late one night while she was asleep and I was testing out some of the new features...

And while on the subject of toys, over the weekend I have rediscovered an old toy that has become My latest new toy and at the same time littleone's latest hated toy ( if that can ever happen that she has a hated toy ), of course I speak of My last year"s birthday present from My littleone, the snake whip. While My littleone was standing looking out the window and dream dreaming of something like when was I going to start giving her a dam good flogging or a bondage session I picked up the whip and flicked it with more wrist movement than I have ever done before, causing it to make the loudest cracking sound I had ever made before and only hear that sound and loudness from a bull whip at the annual DSSG S/Mer BDSM camp. I don't know who was more surprised Myself or littleone as it hit her ass dead on! but I had just learnt something new about an old toy, it had more power than I have ever known before, and you know what? I LOVED it. I am sure if there was a picture of My facial expression taken at that moment in time it would have shown every one of My teeth. I do know that it sure made littleone jump and her eyes pop out of their sockets.

It just goes to show you, that you never know what your toys can do until you have tried different ways of using them, something I am going to have to reconsider about all the other old toys.

So beware littleone, YOU have been warned......

Count them.... 75 !!

Well, the challenge has been set higher tonight..... Yes, even though littleone is bitching that there are still slivers in her ass I was able to reach the level of 75 toothpicks...

It is getting harder to do mind you, as her ass cheeks are not as big as one needs for this challenge...

So, kaya quess what?? Your Master's turn again....

Sir
Owner of morningstar with the wood in her ass.....

Unwelcome guests....

Well, My littleone has been hostess to some unwelcome guests for the past several days and honestly I am getting worried that they are going to drive her nuts, for one of the guests that would be a delight ( lol )..... Below is a picture of this guest that I am talking about. A very cute looking animal but at the moment a highly destructive monster in the walls and laundry room of My subbie's condo.



The other guest is another thing and I wish strongly those BASTARDS that write computer viruses would be found and would be dealt with a dam good flogging with the largest cat-of-nine-tails! littleone has been hit once again with a virus that Norton Anti-Virus software hasn't caught in over two years, yes two years...
Symantec, the company that produces this software, has gotten to big for its own boots and has forgotten their clients... Have you every tried to get an answer from them by talking directly to a real live person working there?? Well littleone has tried and has gotten the run around for weeks now. I guess it is time to start looking around for a better Anti-Virus software company..

These guests are definitely knot like the last ones at the condo, CLoud and karis, now they are true guests that would and will be welcome back soon once CLoud's eye recovers from His surgery He had on it Monday morning. Just to let you know that CLoud is ok for the most part but He needs to rest it for a good week, something I do hope He will do this time instead of pushing Himself like He has done in the past....

Hopefully those unwelcome guests will be gone soon so littleone can focus on the 103 toothpick ass challenge that kaya's Master has raised the bar to a level of 70 at the moment....

May the best ass win !!!

The 103 challenge moves a step closer....

When littleone came to Me earlier this evening saying that she has just finished reading kaya's and taylor's blogs about the fact that these 2 subbies had told their Masters about the toothpick challenge that CLoud had seemed to start last week, I thought hummmmmmmmmm now here is something that started out locally and now has moved to the International arena of good clean BDSM fun, so I decided that I should take the next step and see what littleone's ass could take this evening while I was putting her to bed, I was not disappointed either...

Well as you can see I have succeeded in getting 9 ( nine ) toothpicks into littleone's ass tonight... I do realize that 9 isn't a hell of a lot, but with all the playing this weekend with CLoud and his lastest stable subbie on Friday night and U/us playing Saturday and Sunday with the little hand spanker that W/we won from Le Château's Fetish Fair that was donated as a door prize from Viktoria of Attitudes.cc , I think littleone did wonderfully well and I am pleased with her.... I also can tell you that littleone will be looking forward to meeting the next challenge that both kaya's and taylor's Masters set before them soon....

So, if I might say, in all good competitive spirit " May the best ass win "

103 toothpicks??? I don't think so, darn it....

Well,

For all those lovers of pictures of the things W/we have done, sadly the breaking of the record of the 103 toothpick in the ass will not shown here.... 6 only 6 this time, but in all fairness to littleone, it was the first time and right after having a shave while still having the Gold Bond Extra Strength Medicated Power still coating her pussy ( that is the white in the pics )......

However friends, don't worry about Me being broken hearted about this try, because I am knot butt rather inspired to try again at a later date.... I need to figure out how to place more in while at the same time the rest not falling out when I open the ass cheeks to place the following ones in, but I think I have an idea in the back of the old brain.....

So, now here are some to the results from today's attempt.... Oh and kaya, I hope your Master will see if He can do better than 6 for His first attempt on you...

Once again the world has survived another year, will I ?

Well......

Once again the world has survived another year and so have I, although I don't feel it, but I do wish you all a New Year of hopes and dreams....

Ah, yes those dreams something I have stopped doing a few years ago as so many of them have been shot down by both Myself and others of the world... That is not to say that good things have not come into My life over the past several years but somehow most of the dreams, wishes and hopes just haven't been there....

I am hoping that this year I can become the Dom that My littleone wants/needs and should have in her life as she is a wonderful submissive that only wishes to serve and does so even more when she is flogged, needled, whipped on a daily basis something that My health and My vanilla life won't allow Me to do sadly.... Over the past several months ( if you look back ) I have not been there enough for My littleone and that has and does bother Me a lot, but I just can't seem to get it 100% right and that is getting to her more and more and she is correct ( don't tell her that ) in her thinking.... I keep thinking is this the year I have to release her so she can have the Dom that she needs to make her life complete since she has raised two lovely daughters ( one starting to get into the lifestyle ) and made a fantastic career in her chosen field....

As I write this blog I am waiting to hear from My local hospital to tell Me when My day surgery will be scheduled for and a couple of things keep going through My head will I be able to get back a bodily function that I lost a couple of years ago and will I even leave the hospital alive ( heard a couple of deaths lately that shouldn't have happened ) or in one piece.... My logic says everything is going to be fine, but My mind/heart is thinking other things....

I am hoping that a couple of friends health improve this year so they can do the things they want to do and then enjoy life and the lifestyle the way they want to....

I keep saying that I am going to have to make some heavy decisions this year that worry Me and every year I seem to be able to not make them, but time is running out and they WILL have to be made sooner than later.....

Well am I going to survive another year, I am sure I am, but if I don't I most likely won't know about it.....

What a Gem......

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You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not
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Failed???

I am sitting here watching My littleone running around the place like a busy bee and also sad at the same time and I am wondered why I have failed her so badly...

Since I walked into the condo on Friday and was greeted with a crying and wired subbie, I haven't been able to figure out what to do.... should I turn around and go back home?, should I strip her bare and beat the hell out of her?, should I take her in My arms and hold her until she is back?, honestly I just don't know thus I have failed her and Me....

I know I am second guessing Myself when I think of what I should to and really just do what is in My heart and the back of My mind, but I have always been this way when there is a serious problem and in the long run I usually do the wrong thing when it comes to people's emotions and I end up hurting them even though My actions were clearly meant to do just the opposite effect and that makes Me sad...

So, I have failed since a Dom should make sure He is always in control, something I am clearly not at the moment, for if a Dom is not in control how can He control something He holds most dear to Him, so I have failed and if there was a CEO of Doms, then I would have been fired or at best demoted....

I have been thinking lately that maybe I am not the Dom that I think I am or should be and what is the next step I need to take, before something goes seriously wrong??

Back to the drawing board.... It ain't over yet I hope...

It's a Wonderful Life...style !!

Well, it is Sunday night and I have just place littleone into bed after a weekend of mixed things...
On Friday when I arrived at the condo I was greeted to a guest that I didn't know was going to drop in but did know that she was going to show up someday looking for her DVD that I filmed for her during the summer.... That sort of screwed up My plans for a FULL weekend of D/s that littleone needed so badly....

Well after a 4 hour visit from O/our friend littleone got down to making supper for U/s and I rethinking the schedule of pain and pleasure for My chattel.... Once supper was completed and everything was cleared up W/we headed for the living room and to watch those good old shows Adam-12 and Have Gun Will Travel... I could tell that littleone was thinking to herself ( one of the two things I can't seem to stop littleone from doing ) here W/we go again just another boring night watching TV something she truly hates, but I fooled her ordering her downstairs to the dungeon for a sound beating that she wrote about in her journal that she better describes than I can....

On Saturday were more beatings of her ass to the point that all I could hear from her was her ass was hurting and would come duck every time I would come near her ass... Later that evening I decided that W/we should see how many small clothes pegs I could place on My littleone, unfortunately not as many as W/we both would like to have place, so I changed to large pegs to finish off My littleone, but I am very happy with the amount of little pegs that littleone was able to handle and that made Me very proud of My subbie....



















Some time Sunday afternoon after littleone finished with the Xmas decorations

littleone's cheekiness caused her some trouble, unfortunately I can remember her exact words but they did cause Me to order her upstairs to the bedroom to find/get " Bertha " and the KY jelly... You should have seen her eyes of surprise with that command and even more when I arrived at the bedroom doorway... Once again that old " GOS" wasn't around to save her asshole, but the new Sir just reached for it and preceded with lubing up " Bertha " and headed for that underused asshole to have My fun and her embarassment... Once after I was finished playing she ran towards the commode at full speed and shutting the door... A few mins later, she was standing in front of Me asking if she could have a bath, seeing the look in her eyes I granted her permission to have one since in My opinion she had earned that right....

As for the rest of the day W/we basically laid back and reviewed all the fun W/we had over the weekend and wondered what laid in store for next weekend fun.....

Brrrrrrrrrrrr

I have just chained littleone into bed for the evening and near caught frost bite......

Over the course of the evening I have felt the coldness creeping in more and more.....

I can only guess the cause is from littleone's morning's fit of anger with herself and the out burst of tears and yelling at her Sir due to the non working Christmas lights.... Since I am not truly into the Christmas spirit like she is I didn't lend any sympathy to her problem which I received a yelling at....I suppose I should have hauled her ass over the nearest chair and spanked the hell out of her ass, but instead I walked over to the couch and logged on to the computer and waited for her to come to Me....

After her finishing with the tears she proceeded to go to the basement to have a cigarette, when she finished littleone came upstairs and knelt at My feet with her head hanging low asking for forgiveness.... My response was to ask her what should her punishment be and to the she couldn't answer so I told her I would wait until she gave Me one..... Minutes passed and nothing silence..... Honestly I can't remember what happened next ( old age must be getting to Me sadly ).... The next thing I do remember is heading out to the stores to get some new lights and something to install them from the front shingles, but I could feel that the rest of the day was not going to be good at all.....

Moving along, W/we did find something ( although in My heart I know it wasn't what littleone really wanted ) that filled in the void of the old lights.....

After supper, I noticed that littleone's actions and movements were restless and in a way commanding that a good session should be given out...... Well I am sorry, but when I feel coming from her I will never give her the session she is looking for.....

Maybe I am totally wrong with the vibes I received from littleone today, but this is how I felt and the actions I took.....

Let's hope there is a quick thaw in the frosty winds hanging around this area.....

What does One do???

I was sitting here wondering something " What does a Dom/Domme do when His/Her submissive has an attitude attack as I call it "?



Yes, I know under normal circumstances the answer is simple just to haul out the paddle/cane and give her "10 of the best", but what if her attitude was justified in his/her mind but it just pissed of the Dom/Domme and therefore the Dom/Domme would be punishing him/her for no good reason.... Does the Dom/Domme do it anyways since a Dom/Domme can do what every They wish do to their submissive at anytime remembering that is must be S,S&C ( Safe, Sane and Consensual ).

That fuckin' little thing..........

Well here W/we are in the Great White North's capital city at the Leather Fetish Fair and having a great time althought I will paying for this for sometime but I don't care it was worth every bit of it especially with comments like My littleone just said " that fuckin' little thing " right after My best friend and I just finished whooping littleone's ass with both her new three tail flogger ( purchased at MGLeatherworks ) and My belt loop flogger ( purchased at Venus Envy)....






I must say it has really been a nice trip ( even with the Holiday Inn screw up but they did make ammends quickly, so I will be happy to use them again ) up here and getting to see/talk old friends last night, along with meeting new friends at the fair..... The workshops that W/we were interesting even though the Hot wax one was sort of cancelled as the teacher was running late as a judge at the Mr Leather Ottawa so one of the other lecturers stepped in and handled that topic plus showing the group some things about clothes pegs too.... I also attended a lecture and demostration on working with leather so one can design custom make cuffs and collars.... It is easier than I thought as long as you have the correct tools to work with....

The one sad thing was the Hostess of a private party that was held at Breathless sadly had to leave even before the lock down started due to the illness of one of Her daugthers, I do hope that the child is feeling better and the next time W/we will be able to sit down and talk over more happier things....

It was nice to have a couple of friends travelling with U/us even though some people in the travelling party truly needs to look into getting a stop snoring devices ( looking between littleone and Mistress L), the men folks didn't get much sleep...

I stated this blog at the hotel room this morning but now I am finishing it up back at the condo and I have just tucked in littleone into her bed as one happy little subbie, but she isn't the only one that will be going to bed with head full of happy memories of this weekend's adventures....

Doms/Dommes beware......

It has been awhile since I have done a blog even though one has been at the back of My mind for a couple of weeks....

I have been busy dealing with a subbie that has been rebelling for the past couple of weeks and I have been trying hard to find the correct way to handle the problem.... Some the problem has been in My mind that subbie and to a certain point Myself had become too vanilla... littleone of course doesn't need any vanilla ( or almost any ) in her life with Me....

In trying to deal with this mini rebellion I have noticed something while reading some other blogs and it seems I am knot the only Dom to be going though this rebellion phase... I noticed that some fellow Doms have been handling this problem with a stern hand and whip, others with a kind heart and caring.... The one thing I have noticed that has come through is every Dom seems to end up having a good long hard session with his sub and that seems to have done the trick and the rebellion has been defeated...

So what can We learn from this observation, I honestly don't know completely but I think the only thing is a little rebellion is ok but anything more than must be handled quickly and firmly....