What a Gem......

! You are most Like A Sapphire !
Dark, mysterious - but unforgettable. You have a
deep beauty. Delicate, and shy you try to stay away from
the limelight but often your intelligence puts you in
at the deep end. You're like a Sapphire, because, your
beauty is priceless.
You're intelligent, full of opinions, and not
big-headed about it all.
Sometimes you need to put yourself out there, as
you can be a bit shy.
Congratulations ... You're the mysterious gem
everybody wants to have and learn more about.


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Failed???

I am sitting here watching My littleone running around the place like a busy bee and also sad at the same time and I am wondered why I have failed her so badly...

Since I walked into the condo on Friday and was greeted with a crying and wired subbie, I haven't been able to figure out what to do.... should I turn around and go back home?, should I strip her bare and beat the hell out of her?, should I take her in My arms and hold her until she is back?, honestly I just don't know thus I have failed her and Me....

I know I am second guessing Myself when I think of what I should to and really just do what is in My heart and the back of My mind, but I have always been this way when there is a serious problem and in the long run I usually do the wrong thing when it comes to people's emotions and I end up hurting them even though My actions were clearly meant to do just the opposite effect and that makes Me sad...

So, I have failed since a Dom should make sure He is always in control, something I am clearly not at the moment, for if a Dom is not in control how can He control something He holds most dear to Him, so I have failed and if there was a CEO of Doms, then I would have been fired or at best demoted....

I have been thinking lately that maybe I am not the Dom that I think I am or should be and what is the next step I need to take, before something goes seriously wrong??

Back to the drawing board.... It ain't over yet I hope...

It's a Wonderful Life...style !!

Well, it is Sunday night and I have just place littleone into bed after a weekend of mixed things...
On Friday when I arrived at the condo I was greeted to a guest that I didn't know was going to drop in but did know that she was going to show up someday looking for her DVD that I filmed for her during the summer.... That sort of screwed up My plans for a FULL weekend of D/s that littleone needed so badly....

Well after a 4 hour visit from O/our friend littleone got down to making supper for U/s and I rethinking the schedule of pain and pleasure for My chattel.... Once supper was completed and everything was cleared up W/we headed for the living room and to watch those good old shows Adam-12 and Have Gun Will Travel... I could tell that littleone was thinking to herself ( one of the two things I can't seem to stop littleone from doing ) here W/we go again just another boring night watching TV something she truly hates, but I fooled her ordering her downstairs to the dungeon for a sound beating that she wrote about in her journal that she better describes than I can....

On Saturday were more beatings of her ass to the point that all I could hear from her was her ass was hurting and would come duck every time I would come near her ass... Later that evening I decided that W/we should see how many small clothes pegs I could place on My littleone, unfortunately not as many as W/we both would like to have place, so I changed to large pegs to finish off My littleone, but I am very happy with the amount of little pegs that littleone was able to handle and that made Me very proud of My subbie....



















Some time Sunday afternoon after littleone finished with the Xmas decorations

littleone's cheekiness caused her some trouble, unfortunately I can remember her exact words but they did cause Me to order her upstairs to the bedroom to find/get " Bertha " and the KY jelly... You should have seen her eyes of surprise with that command and even more when I arrived at the bedroom doorway... Once again that old " GOS" wasn't around to save her asshole, but the new Sir just reached for it and preceded with lubing up " Bertha " and headed for that underused asshole to have My fun and her embarassment... Once after I was finished playing she ran towards the commode at full speed and shutting the door... A few mins later, she was standing in front of Me asking if she could have a bath, seeing the look in her eyes I granted her permission to have one since in My opinion she had earned that right....

As for the rest of the day W/we basically laid back and reviewed all the fun W/we had over the weekend and wondered what laid in store for next weekend fun.....

Brrrrrrrrrrrr

I have just chained littleone into bed for the evening and near caught frost bite......

Over the course of the evening I have felt the coldness creeping in more and more.....

I can only guess the cause is from littleone's morning's fit of anger with herself and the out burst of tears and yelling at her Sir due to the non working Christmas lights.... Since I am not truly into the Christmas spirit like she is I didn't lend any sympathy to her problem which I received a yelling at....I suppose I should have hauled her ass over the nearest chair and spanked the hell out of her ass, but instead I walked over to the couch and logged on to the computer and waited for her to come to Me....

After her finishing with the tears she proceeded to go to the basement to have a cigarette, when she finished littleone came upstairs and knelt at My feet with her head hanging low asking for forgiveness.... My response was to ask her what should her punishment be and to the she couldn't answer so I told her I would wait until she gave Me one..... Minutes passed and nothing silence..... Honestly I can't remember what happened next ( old age must be getting to Me sadly ).... The next thing I do remember is heading out to the stores to get some new lights and something to install them from the front shingles, but I could feel that the rest of the day was not going to be good at all.....

Moving along, W/we did find something ( although in My heart I know it wasn't what littleone really wanted ) that filled in the void of the old lights.....

After supper, I noticed that littleone's actions and movements were restless and in a way commanding that a good session should be given out...... Well I am sorry, but when I feel coming from her I will never give her the session she is looking for.....

Maybe I am totally wrong with the vibes I received from littleone today, but this is how I felt and the actions I took.....

Let's hope there is a quick thaw in the frosty winds hanging around this area.....

What does One do???

I was sitting here wondering something " What does a Dom/Domme do when His/Her submissive has an attitude attack as I call it "?



Yes, I know under normal circumstances the answer is simple just to haul out the paddle/cane and give her "10 of the best", but what if her attitude was justified in his/her mind but it just pissed of the Dom/Domme and therefore the Dom/Domme would be punishing him/her for no good reason.... Does the Dom/Domme do it anyways since a Dom/Domme can do what every They wish do to their submissive at anytime remembering that is must be S,S&C ( Safe, Sane and Consensual ).

That fuckin' little thing..........

Well here W/we are in the Great White North's capital city at the Leather Fetish Fair and having a great time althought I will paying for this for sometime but I don't care it was worth every bit of it especially with comments like My littleone just said " that fuckin' little thing " right after My best friend and I just finished whooping littleone's ass with both her new three tail flogger ( purchased at MGLeatherworks ) and My belt loop flogger ( purchased at Venus Envy)....






I must say it has really been a nice trip ( even with the Holiday Inn screw up but they did make ammends quickly, so I will be happy to use them again ) up here and getting to see/talk old friends last night, along with meeting new friends at the fair..... The workshops that W/we were interesting even though the Hot wax one was sort of cancelled as the teacher was running late as a judge at the Mr Leather Ottawa so one of the other lecturers stepped in and handled that topic plus showing the group some things about clothes pegs too.... I also attended a lecture and demostration on working with leather so one can design custom make cuffs and collars.... It is easier than I thought as long as you have the correct tools to work with....

The one sad thing was the Hostess of a private party that was held at Breathless sadly had to leave even before the lock down started due to the illness of one of Her daugthers, I do hope that the child is feeling better and the next time W/we will be able to sit down and talk over more happier things....

It was nice to have a couple of friends travelling with U/us even though some people in the travelling party truly needs to look into getting a stop snoring devices ( looking between littleone and Mistress L), the men folks didn't get much sleep...

I stated this blog at the hotel room this morning but now I am finishing it up back at the condo and I have just tucked in littleone into her bed as one happy little subbie, but she isn't the only one that will be going to bed with head full of happy memories of this weekend's adventures....

Doms/Dommes beware......

It has been awhile since I have done a blog even though one has been at the back of My mind for a couple of weeks....

I have been busy dealing with a subbie that has been rebelling for the past couple of weeks and I have been trying hard to find the correct way to handle the problem.... Some the problem has been in My mind that subbie and to a certain point Myself had become too vanilla... littleone of course doesn't need any vanilla ( or almost any ) in her life with Me....

In trying to deal with this mini rebellion I have noticed something while reading some other blogs and it seems I am knot the only Dom to be going though this rebellion phase... I noticed that some fellow Doms have been handling this problem with a stern hand and whip, others with a kind heart and caring.... The one thing I have noticed that has come through is every Dom seems to end up having a good long hard session with his sub and that seems to have done the trick and the rebellion has been defeated...

So what can We learn from this observation, I honestly don't know completely but I think the only thing is a little rebellion is ok but anything more than must be handled quickly and firmly....

Vanilla.....

Over the past few weeks My littleone has started to act more vanilla than what she was trained for and lives, a BDSM submissive.... Is that My fault or hers? well it really doesn't matter who's fault it is, it has to be changed soon, very soon!

I am Dom that once I give an order/command I want it done then and now, unless I have or special circumstances decide differently.... I am also a Dom that once I have given that order/task I don't say it twice, but I just put the lack of action in My mental little black book.... The only exception to this rule is when one is in training, well littleone is long from days of training, she took to very well, even though she always believes that she is stupid/dumb which is far from the truth, she is a very smart submissive all be it opinionated from time to time....

Once again, work for littleone has played a big part of her return to this vanilla style I suppose and that pisses Me off again too, but I can't do much about it except to be there for her to vent.... For the rest of the time though, this vanillaism is starting to get Me upset, I don't like some of the things that the vanilla lifestyle brings, for example: challenging what I say or do, jealousy, and for lack of words, rebellion...

I suppose I should take her down to the dungeon and take a strip off her backside with a good hard session so she has something to think about for days, but My gut says that isn't going to cut it, this vanillaism must come from her mind and knot her body....

The vanilla bean is a wonderful plant and a LOVELY favor, but only in little doses, I want and demand that the BDSM style get back into littleone's mind and this time stay there...

A rose in bloom

This rose is a lovely, yes? Do you think it is finished blooming yet? Well it isn't nor will it be for sometime yet and that is good...

Well, that is how I feel about My littleone and her bod, it is a piece of art the needs to be shaped and molded... I must tell you that I am very proud of My littleone for the other day she decided that she needed to reshape herself and of course she took the bull by the horns like she usually does when she has something in her mind... After seeing Cloud's subbies doing excerises she felt that might be the way to go, so with permission she asked Cloud to have ing ( the on line sub ) to send her the list of exercises that Cloud had given to His subbies.... Once she had received this list littleone began, but found she needed help, so once again with permission she contacted Cloud to see if He would show up at the condo to show her where she was going wrong... Cloud and I made arrangements to have Me pick Him up and wait for littleone to return home work and begin the training...

I decided I would be taking pictures of this training session.... I am knot going to show these pictures because in littleone's daily journal she pointed out and rightly so " i doubt either You or Cloud fully understand how difficult it was for me today to have YOU both here watching me exercise .. criticising.. correcting.. AND to have You laughing while You took pictures and saying "OHHHHHHHHH what a blog this is gonna make!!" i am NOT proud of my body.. "

So, I am telling you all and littleone that I am SO proud of her doing this physical training that I can and WILL say is: Go for your goal and you have ALL My suppose for it !!!!

Oh littleone, just remember this it is the WHOLE you that makes you My subbie knot just one thing, so don't sweat if your goals aren't reached by tomorrow, but rather as long as it is just reached !!!

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

On the road again.....

Once again W/we were on the road again looking for a new venue. Miss Jenn, a friend in Ottawa has just opened a new club ( although it is called a community centre ) called Breathless. I wish her all the best in getting this place up and running and by the looks of it I think She will succeed.....

I was hoping it was going to be a good drive and visit to Ottawa with CLoud and littleone, well I was and it wasn't. The weather was great, the traffic was low however the conversation going up was one the really has Me with mixed emotions about My ex and littleone's feelings about her. Yes, I know I am a Male but I don't fully understand but I do understand I have hurt littleone's feelings and made her worry about her standing with her Sir....

Well, at this point in My life I am just going to get back on the road and think, I find that this is a good place to think things out....

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

I think the dime is dropping.....

Yesterday, I had to take a old friend to Lennoxville to visit her sister and I thought it would be nice to take littleone one with us. Well I was wrong, as I kept hearing from littleone that she really didn't want to be on the trip. Not only was her mouth was complaining but her actions let Me know as well.

I thought maybe I would teach her a little lesson on the ride back by ordering her to insert the vibe that is always in the car's glove compartment, well when W/we got home and after W/we let off My friend littleone told Me that the batteries in the vibe were dead and had been for most of the return trip, so littleone had something more to bitch about as now she was fustrated too..... That did it I was not going to take anymore of her complaints so when W/we got back to the condo she asked permission to make a cup a coffee, which I told her no and I reached for the IKEA snake shoe horn.

It is a lovely, lovely discipline stick that I picked up at IKEA and leave it in the kitchen so that I can have something that is easily ready to use if I need it and if anyone says anything about it well it is for getting shoes on fast.... I ordered her to get into the living room and assume the punishment position and I straight away started the punishment period without any warm up and using hard and long pauses between each stroke I gave littleone a readjustment of her thinking regards going with Me anywhere, anytime and without anymore bitching and to be happy that I even thought of taking her along with Me when I go somewhere.....

Later Sunday evening after W/we have finished supper I decided to watch a bit of television while I thought whether or not W/we would go over to CLoud's place to delivery Him a CD of the DSSG S/mer camp pictures. littleone thought again it would be nice to push Sir's buttons and joke about My sitting position as it was getting lower and lower on the sofa, well once I again I wasn't going to let her one get away with that one, so I called CLoud and We talked for awhile and We decided since CLoud was tired W/we would show up another night.... With that information it was time to order littleone to go to the dungeon and get My favorite paddle that I got from Il Bolero. I enjoy it very much as it is light and is well balanced so every swing does the job without tiring Me out no matter how hard I hit littleone. Another thing about this paddle is I can, if I choose to, I can get littleone flying in mins. I thought that a session of 15 mins would teach her some respect about My sitting positions, but somewhere in those 15 mins it turned out to be a challenge for a 60 min session, well I certainly wasn't tired and 60 mins would just be fine with Me even though I don't like having a session the night before littleone goes to work since she has trouble focusing the next day and in her job she needs all the focusing she can handle

Well, I must admit I did enjoy giving her a 60 min paddling session and something else too, I felt good after it, just like a exercise workout but instead of Me sweating, it was littleone that was doing that.... her ass was turning into a nice red tough piece of meat and the more she cried out the more I hit her...

littleone has been on My case lately about My "GOS" ( Good old Sir ) attitude with her and how I should lose it, well I think this Sunday I am well on the way to losing it and starting to become the harder Sir littleone is looking for, needs and wants I just hope that littleone knows what she is in for....

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

Follow the yellow rope road.....follow, follow....

Once again W/we were on the road again, one that had mixed feelings for Me... It was a trip that somehow wasn't suppose to happen this year, after last year's poor weather and other things W/we had decided that W/we weren't going to the 2005 DSSG S/mer camp, but somehow by March W/we had sent O/our money to secure a place. The only difference from the previous years would be another person would be joining U/us on this trip of over 1,000kms....

The first hurdle would be trying to fit all the things that people wanted to bring into a car that was build for half the equipment to be placed in it... While littleone and I were in Vermont a couple of weeks ago I purchased a roof bag for the roof rack and I am so glad I did or W/we would never have gotten all things in the station wagon...

After the wagon was packed and tied down ( even the car got into the BDSM mode ) W/we hit the road towards O/our first stop on the trip to Kingston, Ontario. The time past fast with everyone talking about the weekend wishes and hopes. After the 3 hour drive to Kingston W/we arrived at the hotel to be greeted with the hotel sign saying it had free Internet High Speed in every room, boy did My heart ache as I decided to leave My laptop back at the condo. The next step was to unload the electric cooler and things for the night in the room then it was to head out to Kingston downtown, but first W/we headed for littleone's parent's old home and to let her have some good memories again, since this trip I had promised her it was going to be her time to enjoy herself knot like in the past trips where she had lost out on lots of things. Once the tears of happiness had gone from her eyes W/we headed for downtown once again only to have another detour to Sir John A. Macdonald's first house, "Bellevue". It was a lovely place to visit and I could see some lovely places that I could have used for some BDSM play if I had lived there....

After the tour, we headed for Downtown Kingston for some food and some more sightseeing. W/we found a nice place for supper, the Kingston Brewing Company and if you every go to Kingston I would recommend it and ask for Kelly B not Kelly A or Kelly C but for Kelly B as she was a good server.

Once supper was over W/we headed for the tourist area where I purchased a Kingston hat and lost it just as fast although I do think it was one of the ghosts that followed U/us on the Kingston's Haunted Walk tour. I thought I wasn't going to last the walk as I had developed a heel spur the day before, but after walking all around Kingston the heel spur has gone totally away which I am very thankful for....

Next day, W/we hit the 401 once again for the next 10 hours of driving to the camp. During the drive around Toronto via the 407 My left arm started to tingle and further on I started to sweat not wishing to panic everyone that I might be having a ACS attack, I kept going on until Brantford where W/we stopped for lunch and I went to the bathroom to take a puff of Nitro just as precaution but I didn't feel like having lunch. I decided to let littleone drive the last several kms to the campsite. By the time W/we arrived the tingling was still there but no ACS pains so it was off to unpacking the Taurus and give the shocks a change to recover.

The Turkey Point campsite had changed for the good with a new community center, but the weather had stayed the same as W/we rushed to get the site set-up just before the heavy rain storm started and that was going to be the way of the weekend rain then sunshine and no air. All in all, I didn't mind the weather too much except for the dampness in the tent and I don't mean littleone.

Over the weekend, I did get the pleasure and fun to play with littleone several times although I didn't get around to play with some of the things I thought I might get to, like doing some anal play ( a somewhat hard limit ) however I did get the chance after 3 years of trying to stake littleone out on her air mattress in O/our campsite for all that past to see and make comments and Oh how littleone loved that one even with the clothes pins all over her body. Later that evening and having waiting for the thunderstorm and the long waiting list to finish I then took littleone over to the large play tent to give her a sound flogging and boy did W/we, I even finally got to mark her something I haven't really been able to do for the past 4 years. W/we went back to the campsite to find there was no campfire going something that had be promised, so it was off to bed....

Sunday morning came all to quickly and it was time to get the camping equipment back in the car only this time it was all wet from the rain and the morning dew.

It was decided to drive halfway back home and then see if Wwe would stay overnight or drive straight home. W/we made it back to Kingston so I said W/we would check out the prices of a Downtown Kingston hotel, buy another hat to replace the one that ghost had stolen earlier, have a cup of coffee and a snack and make up O/our minds about staying over, something I really didn't want to do as I was broke and didn't wish to pay for another hotel room stay. Everyone seemed to want to get home so it was back on the road with littleone to drive to Cornwall. Once back on the road I finally showed littleone to adjust the driver's seat to fit her better something I have tried to get her to do long before this, but since she drives her little red Honda she finds the Taurus wagon a bit too big to handle although she does a wonder job when I allow her to get behind the wheel, something I really should do more of...

All in all, the weekend went very well although I am sure that My fellow campers felt my mood of maintaining control to see that littleone had a good time... Although I did have a good time camping and I will miss Hulmet's wonderful beef supper ( Helmet is one of the DSSG's camp members that works hard of making the weekend a great place and He cooks a couple of 75lbs side of beef over an all day open-pit fire ) W/we are not going back there next year, but hopefully W/we will be allowed to attend the Vermont WITW weekend...

And finally but knot the last, I am very proud of the job My littleone did over the weekend I couldn't have asked for a better job!!

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

You might be a Redneck if.....

Changing the famous saying of comic Jeff Foxworthy " I might be a camper if I....

put up with 40c weather....
put up with no swimming suit while there is a lovely beach only seconds away....
put up with a non working car battery, because I ran the electric cooler all night....
put up with a street lamp on the other side of the campsite....
going to a teddy bear factory AND making a cute teddy bear for Myself (look at My profile)....

well then, I must be a camper as I loved every minute of it or was it because I was with littleone serving Me through out all these mini problems to the best of her abilties.... The only thing I regret is being able to play with litteone, but between the weather and the vanilla street light/campsite that just couldn't happen even though I did make it up to her (and Me too) when W/we got back to homebase....

During O/our vacation time, W/we have the great pleasure to attend a Vermont BDSM group monthly soiree. It was a great time, good food, lively topics, seeing and meeting old and new Vermont BDSMer's, one kinky bunch of Americans....

All in all, this camping trip to Vermont has make Me think that future camping trips are going to be in the works and I don't mean the up-coming DSSG S/mer's camp in two weeks. Talking about that camp, I am looking forward to getting there so I can start playing with litteone while out in Mother Nature's world....

4th Anniversary

Well, it was our 4th and not our 3rd anniversary on Friday as littleone had written in her lovely story that she gave Me along with the foot high Geisha and Samurai figures...


littleone thought that I have forgotten O/our anniversary when I showed up at the condo without her present, well I hadn't forgotten to purchase her present, but rather I thought that Friday wasn't the 29th but rather the 28th( something everyone does from time to time ). I was sad when she handed Me her present to Me while I had forgotten My present to her at My place, but in the long run it worked out even better as I told littleone to get dressed so W/we could head out for the house then I would take her out to dinner at her favorite Chinese place that just happens to be in My hometown...

To finish off the anniversary I decided that littleone needed a good flogging but only using one of the many toys W/we have, so this morning I pulled her to the dungeon by the hair and showed her the wall of toys while I decided which one I was going to use. I then decided that the only toy that would work from start to finish was a lovely tawse...

I dragged littleone to the new little dungeon and draped her over the pony, lifted up her t-shirt and started in on her.. It was a lovely sight to see her knees go weak with every hit of the tawse... My pleasure lasted for a good 30 mins until littleone could no long stay up on her legs... But the last of the anniversary present was still waiting for her up stairs... Once back in the living room with the open bay window for all to see I place littleone over the lazy boy chair so I could take some pictures of the tawse marks that were left on her ass, then once the shots had been taken I finger fucked her wet pussy until she yelled that she needed to cum, so I gave her permission and then she dropped to her pillow on the floor to go and enjoy the sub space that I had taken her to..

So, Happy 4th Anniversary My littleone :-))

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

subbie's vacations???

This morning while littleone was getting My breakfast W/we were talking about the fact that her journal was over 30 mins late. She pointed out to Me that she was on holidays from work so why should her journal still have to be done by 7:30am since she wasn't working??

My thinking is simple, her journal has nothing to do with her work schedule but rather to O/our lifestyle. Why would she think that a subbie task like a daily journal is based on her work schedule other than I want it before her work day starts and since her work day starts before 8:00am with travelling time taken into consideration??

The only exception in My mind would be if W/we have been out late the night before and then sleep has been limited and I really would like a journal that would have more than just " here is Your journal Sir " or words like that...

So, since this relationship of O/ours is a 24/7 one, then I strongly believe that My chattel better take notice from this point on that the punishment will be enforced 2 smacks on her bare ass for every minute late.

Here's My results.....

Master! You are 73% Dominant and 12% Submissive!

That below is your playroom. You know how to command attention... and another. You know all there is to know about 'teaching.' You got a Ph.D. in pain. If your score is high enough I bet you're a sadist! Anyway, I'd better get out of your way.... Master.

Thank God I got what I did or I would have to look for a new line of pleasure..... and I guess I still have too much GOS ( good old Sir ) still in Me....

What am I doing to do???

Since this early afternoon littleone's mood has Me going nuts, she has gone from laughter and enjoyment to tears and almost total silence....

This mood is not something new for her, but My feelings of not being in control is.... on one hand I want to just lean over and punish her for her actions ( but if I do she might/will think I am just doing for her or she shouldn't be punished at all ) or lack of and then on the other hand I can't undertstand where this is all coming from... her mood changed this time with an offer of having coffee and a swim with a pink pantie subbie friend of O/ours along with her BDSM daughter.... When I asked what was happening the most she really said was " she couldn't explain it to Me " and the more I pushed the more she went and "hid" behind her wall of silence...

When I walked in the condo on Friday I was greeted with " I am going to be a good subbie all weekend long", well today I would say that has gone out the window.. Last night W/we had a BDSM equipment swap meet with some of O/our friends, an idea that littleone came up with and in My mind (and I am sure the others there too) a GREAT idea... littleone made Me very proud of the evening and it's success...

Over the past month or so I feel I have lost the control, respect of her that I once had and I am not sure what the next step is.....but I do know that I getting upset, tired with this attitude... I am starting to think that this subbie has become disatified with her Sir, God knows I have tried to be the Dominate in her life over this time period, but she has not listened to what I have tried to do or ordered her to DO.....

So what do I do??? When I talk to her I seem to send her into tears or I put My foot into My mouth more, so what do I do???

she is worth the fight, but I am tired of getting up everyday and fighting with My world...

subbies shouldn't be allowed to be ill..

See what happens when Dommes allow their subbies to be sick with a bad cold...This was the way the chicken breasts came out looking from the BBQ that I haven't had to use since I allow littleone to do all the cooking. I have forgotten just how to use the BBQ, although I do have another good excuse too, and that is a new and smaller BBQ that W/we purchased just a little while ago than I am use to.



All joking aside, My littleone is ill and it is drving her nuts knot being able to serve her Sir the way she needs to, wants to, has to. I even had to sadly cancel going to Le Château to wish an always late submissive of a nice Dom and seeing an old friend doing "his" again after a long time away from play... But if I had to make a choice betweeen staying at the Condo with My littleone or going to Le Château then is no question in MY mind where I am going to be, AT THE CONDO beside my ailling sub, just as I know she would/has been there for Me....

I do have a questions for the other Doms/Dommes out there when their submissives are sick, do you do stop the D/s lifestyle or do you continue just as normal? You see, My littleone loves/needs her D/s lifestyle, but I don't know if I should continue with it while she is ill. For an example over this weekend, I have wanted to paddle her ass hard both for fun and for maintaining the D/s rules.

W/we have just been invited to a party by a couple that W/we use to hang around with years ago but seem to have gone our different ways in what BDSM 24/7 lifestyle is to each of U/us. The problem is: W/we invited them to O/our swap gathering ( being held the day after their party ) a couples of weeks ago and the deadline for O/our RSVP deadline has past without a word from them. And just to add fuel to this problem My ex's sister has asked U/us to help her move back to the city on the same day as the invitation.... Honestly, at this time I have several thoughts going through this Dom mind of Mine, but I don't like any of them... I think I will just wait until the last min to give O/our answer.

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

Part-time Dom

Over the past couple of weeks I have felt like I was being a "part-time" Dom to my littleone and that was confusing her and to Myself...

I noticed that some of My earlier training and " Rules to Live By " were no longer being followed to the way I wanted or planned for them to be done by littleone. I have thought long and hard about just who was at fault, Me or littleone? To this question I have to say on the most part it has been My fault. I have let the vanilla lifestyle move back in to littleone's life more than she should/needs to have. When I started training her almost 4 years ago I had made several rules but the MOST important one was that " Family, Work or Health " should/must always come first and I would/must have to back off, well now I must look at this rule again with different eyes.

In the area of " Family " for the most part everyone knows and accepts Me as her "Man" in her life even if some of them don't know that I am her Dom, therefore I will be more of her Dom now in family things....

In the area of " Work " well that one is going to have to stay the same for the most part, although I will have to step in if things don't change in Sept....

And in the area of " Health " I will be in her face for smoking ( stopping completely), weight ( I need to lose weight too ) and anything else that I feel needs to be handled.....

Even if I am knot there 24/7 like W/we both want to be, littleone is going to have to live like I am there all the time or there is going to be lots of punishments, and I am no longer going to except " but Sir " as an excuse from now on....

On a different note over the weekend W/we visited Il Bolero and I finally purchased a good set of cuffs so I don't worry anymore when littleone goes in sub space.



So, I do hope and pray with the new improved Sir my chattel, littleone, will be more happier with both her vanilla and BDSM life....

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

The BDSM God's talked to Me.....

Well this weekend started off with My mind in many places, but not where it should have been and that was with My littleone.....

It was something that she said a little while ago, " that her Sir wasn't there " and that hit Me right between the eyes and shook Me up big time. Where had I gone?, Where was I ? and Where was I going? rolled around My mind for days.... At one point I had even thought of telling littleone that I was cancelling the weekend, but I had newbie BDSM guests showing up for a mini-formal BDSM dinner and I didn't wish to do anything to stop their learning the BDSM lifestyle that I and littleone live.....

When I did arrive at the condo My mind frame was still going over those questions and what was I going to do?? Normally, when I arrive at the condo, if W/we don't have anywhere to go, I sit down and have littleone get Me a drink of something and I unwind from the traffic jam that I have just driven threw. This time wasn't much different although littleone started almost from the time she sat at My feet to tell Me about her problems at work. Usually I will sit back and let her go on about the problems, but with My thoughts racing around, I was only going to put up with only so much and then enough was enough... It was down to the dungeon and littleone was going to get a flogging....

I really didn't have a plan on what I was going to do or use on littleone but I knew in My mind I needed to get back to a position of " LORD and MASTER " over My property. In the past I have always thought of what equipment I was going to use and just how hard I was going to use it, but knot this time, this time was going to have to be very different in My mind or I was going to lose something that I had worked so hard to get and retain and that was My littleone. This time in My mind I was going to have to take TOTAL control and stop the session ONLY when I wanted to stop and knot when I felt littleone had had enough. I was going to hit long and hard something that I never normally do in that combination. So I started like usual placing her on the Andrew's Cross with a set of cuffs that I am getting fed up with and will have to plan a trip to Il Bolero or Northbound ( a couple of local fetish stores in the area ) to get the cuffs I really have always wanted. Once she was attached to the cross I looked at the wall of floggers, whips and paddles that W/we have collected over the past 4 years. Honestly, at this time I can't remember what toys I started with or even used but I do know that I used almost every " hard " toy that was on that wall. I basically didn't even get littleone a good " warm-up " that she is use to. I got down to the session and about half way ( 30 mins ) it hit ME.... I AM the one that is in charge and NOTHING that is going to be said or things that I do will change the fact that I am littleone's Sir and if she thinks I am knot there well so be it, that will be her problem not mind because when I am ready to act like " her " Sir then I will and SHE had better get use to these " non Sir " times. It is knot My actions that make Me Sir but rather what I feel in My mind and heart that makes Me Sir and since in My mind I am a 24/7 Sir even if I am knot around My training, tasks, wishes, wants and commands better ALWAYS be the only thing in littleone's submissive mind or I have lost the submissive that I have claimed as MINE!! God did I feel great and continued with the session until I was totally finished in mind and body...


W/we have spent sometime getting O/our little dungeon to a way that W/we can play in comfort and get full enjoyment out of it. Although I found out this weekend that this is going to be an ongoing project no matter if I feel it is finished to the way a private home dungeon can be. Here is a collage of some pictures I took after W/we redesigned it since now the " family " accepts littleone's " kink " and W/we can be more honest to our BDSM lifestyle.. I just guess I am going to have to use that bondage book I got " The Better Built Bondage Book " more often...

As for the rest of the weekend, well I see that My littleone has done a blog on it " Giving back " and don't wish to go over it again....

All I can say is that the BDSM Gods have shown Me the way and I learnt what I did during that Friday session was required and every Dominant should have the same feeling sometime during their rule....

Sir, proud owner of morningstar

Row, row, row your sub....

Well last night I thought it was time that I give lettleone a well deserved paddle. I always wonder what littleone sees in getting a sound thumping, yet everytime she shows Me by getting so wet and horny... I do apoloize for the quality of the photo, I got a new camera and I have to learn that is one has one hell of a powerful flash...


Sir, proud owner of morningstar

Ding-A-Ling subbie near by.......

When I need to make sure where littleone is I place a bell on her piercing.... This action also has a side effect and that is she is well aware of her place in life...


Sir, proud owner of morningstar

Needling.....

Last evening W/we had a lovely session of needles. I thought I would give littleone a good session of flogging but somehow I just didn't think W/we were in the right frame of mind to have one, although it has been a such a long time since I gave her one....

I placed a total of 22 needles into littleone's ass, 11 on each of her cheeks in a sort of + shaped pattern as the photo shows.... After I placed about a couple needles into her littleone's started flight into sub-space.... I have come to the conclusion that all submissives have the same reaction to the needles, although I need to do it on several more subs to see if My thinking is correct on this matter....



An another side of needling though that I don't like is littleone's "back talking". Sadly I was forced this afternoon while shaving littleone's pussy to punish her with several hard hits with " Miss Christine" ( a small cane that our friends Christine and Norm gave Me ). It sounds strange but when I am forced to punish littleone for her mistakes it really gets to Me.

I can only hope in time I will be able to train littleone to My ways so I don't have to punish her. Don't get Me wrong, littleone is doing a wonderful job learning My ways, yet I feel from time to time that I am neglecting her training somehow. I don't wish to "break" her spirit that I love so much, but rather rain it in to a level that I can live with and won't be forced to punish her the way I have been.....


Sir, proud owner of morningstar

A Mother's Day special....

Well littleone needed something special on Mother's Day and this was it.... Although it was only 14 on the lips and one on the nipple, I was very proud of her for taking them all..

However in the next cuming months it is going up to a count of 17 clips..you do the math and locations...

The rest of the day her pussy lips told her it was fun even when the kids dropped in to say hi...



ps: I really must remember to shave that subbie of mine.....

I thought you might enjoy seeing littleone's jewerly that W/we had done last year at Black Sun Studio..... 

Well... I think you might like to know about Myself. The first thing is that I am knot a writer yet I do need sometimes to say what I am thinking or feeling, so do forgive Me if there are spelling mistakes or worse grammar mistakes...

Now for as long as I can remember I have always loved and enjoyed bondage, it has only been about three years since I have been in the wonderful world of BDSM...

I am presently a Dom ( or as to My sub Sir ) to a great submissive ( littleone ) that adores the D/s relationship we have although she would adore it even more so if it could be a 24/7 relationship however that can’t happen at this time....

Over My lifetime I have only loved bondage, yet a few years ago I somehow ( I don’t how or why ) found the world of BDSM entered My life. In this time frame I have learnt to give a flogging, wax play, knife play, needle play to name a few things...

I hope this gives you a thumbnail idea of who and where I am coming from...